NEW CHALLENGES

I know that I have said time and again how faithful our Lord is, but this summer again in particular instances, He has shown once again how loving and involved in each life, He is! As I speak with people each day, I am still astounded at how He leads me to certain people who either need Him or know Him and we can rejoice together! As usual there have been physical challenges as well, part of the reason I haven’t written as much. I have found that most of the time it has been all I could do to do my work for the day. I had thought that after I had back surgery to remove a cyst off of my spine which had wrapped itself around several nerves and caused me great pain and difficulty walking, was really past the bad stuff! I have had blocks in my neck before and I did need that before we were finished with everything. Unfortunately my problem is at C2/3 and they cannot fuse it or I could never move my head again! So I was told the best thing was to burn the nerves and that would take care of the pain. The problem though, has been an extreme side effect called Ataxia. You lose the control of your legs.  Sometimes I am walking and it is just as if I don’t have any legs at all, they give out on me. So I fall or just sit down abruptly. Most of the time, when I am walking, though, my legs just look spastic. My doc has assured me that this will clear up within another week! I hope so. So far, it has been 3 weeks today. What I have read, says 7-10 days. Physical therapy will start working with me this week and see if we can speed up the process.

My other issue is spiking blood pressure. It goes very high and then will get down to a reasonable level. We are working with new meds on that! This is a problem that my mother had. Hers would just go up and down and up and down too. Its very weird. I have a great internist though and like I said brand new medicine to take.

So any of you who know me would know that I would go straight to my Lord God about all this. He has set my path. I know this like I know the back of my hand. Yesterday, He reached out to me through my devotional. Many of you know I read Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. So yesterday was talking about the human body and inevitable effects of aging. That even if I were a superb athlete, which I am NOT, most cannot maintain their fitness over many decades. But this is specifically what it said ” Do not be anxious about the weakness of your body. Instead, view it as the prelude to My infusing energy into your being. Though the process of aging continues, inwardly you grow stronger with the passing years. Those who live close to Me develop an inner aliveness that makes them seem youthful in spite of their years. Let my Life shine through you, and you walk in the Light with Me.” Isn’t that beautiful? And of course the first scripture verse was Psalm 139:14 I will give thanks to Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. This particular scripture is one that I have really gone to the Lord about many times in my life. If you’ve read my stories, you know that I don’t have a perfect body according to human eyes, human thoughts. What My Lord has taught me through all of these things is that I must depend on Him for my very breath and heartbeat; that the people he has me meet through the issues are put there for a purpose. So please pray that I will be mindful of these things as I recover!

I mentioned that God had been faithful, oh so faithful. I cannot begin to count the ways and He wouldn’t want me to! But He has just blessed us so incredibly this summer in ways we never would have dreamed. Still, our Lord knows our heart and our deepest longings. I believe that if we are faithful to Him, He answers us!!! One of the ways I can talk about is my business that finally it seems that it is coming together. I know that I am going to get better as God even went before me and has arranged a business trip (short) to Houston in 3 weeks. I have been wanting to go for a year and now it has all come together in perfect timing for everyone. I know my Lord. I will be ready.

One last thing I will leave you with is from my devotional today. “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Remember that all good things-your possessions, your family and friends, your health and abilities, your time- are gifts from ME. Instead of feeling entitled to all these blessings, respond to them with gratitude. Be prepared to let go of anything I take from you, but never let go of My Hand!” Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.

Believe me, this is a truth from the Lord. I have had this happen. But He has restored everything. Now, I have to hold onto the lesson.

Something Happened Today

Something marvelous happened today to me through work and I thought I would share it quickly. I do share my faith often with people who I am working with as you may know. In this particular case, a brand new firm that I hope to do business with, the Managing Partner told me last night that unfortunately she would be out today as her daughter was having surgery. I simply remarked that I would pray for her daughter, which I did. What was amazing was the email conversation that started as a result.  That Managing Partner is a fellow believer in Christ. I asked when the surgery was taking place and it was happening as we were emailing. I had already been praying in my spirit, but I stopped everything and began to pray in earnest for this precious daughter. The Lord indicated to me that it was a tumor before I was even told it was a tumor. So I did know how to pray. I wasn’t positive, but I thought I knew what the leading was. When I wrote back and asked “how are things now?” I was told the daughter was out surgery and the tumor looks to be benign. Of course, I was praising God, my amazing, wonderful God for answering our prayers. Two mothers praying together for a daughter. Then I thought, how terrible of me, to not have expected this of my Lord. He answers prayers all the time. The problem is we don’t pray together, believing Him. He who put the stars and the sun and the moon in their places! He can do anything!

I read from Sarah Young and her Jesus Calling devotional. Today it says, TRUST ME IN EVERY DETAIL OF YOUR LIFE. nothing is random in My kingdom. Everything that happens first into a pattern for good, to those who love Me. Instead of trying to analyze the intricacies of the pattern, focus your energy on trusting Me and thanking Me at all times. Nothing is wasted when you walk close to Me. Even your mistakes and sins can be recycled into something good through My transforming grace.

While you were living in darkness, I began to shine the Light of My Presence into your sin-stained life. Finally I lifted you up out of the mire into My marvelous Light. Having sacrificed My very Life for you, I can be trusted in very facet of your life.

But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.”  Jeremiah 17:7

We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28 AMP

“he drew me up out of a horrible pit {a pit of tumult and of destruction], out of the miry clay (froth and slime), and set my feet upon a rock, steadying my steps and establishing my goings.” Psalm 40:2

“But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.” I Peter 2:9

God is so great and so good to us. He is Risen! He is Risen Indeed!

So Much Is Going On!!

As I had what I hope will be the very last reconstructive surgery a week ago, I recouped over Labor Day weekend reading books, posts on FB and the internet and listening to the news.

I watched Shephard Smith about break down a few weeks  after the airliner was shot down over Ukraine, the border jumpers in Texas in particular, and the volcanoes erupting. Since then we have had Ebola kill thousands, ISIS become a major threat to the world, Putin continue to flex his muscles, volcanoes continue to erupt, illegals still are jumping our borders. The United States has seen two of its citizens beheaded by ISIS, in retaliation, they say, for our bombings, pitiful as they are. Yet America by and large continues business as usual. Oh we rail against our “Muslim President who won’t hit his Muslim brotherhood unless he just has to.” We rail against our Congress-yes that means you Congress Representatives and Senators for only caring about getting re-elected, not anything about doing the business of government. but other than that, what do we do America?

I watched a news program this morning. They had started off talking about the fact that this is a Christian nation, founded on the principles of God. Which is in fact truth, it was. Then they went on to talk about how our nation is a “melting pot” and we have every religion here. That is true. But as far as I know, in our constitution nor our Bill of Rights, does it demand that we bow down to somebody else’s idea of “their” religion or no religion. I believe that our courts, our judges, our attorneys who continue to pursue this line only pursue with the threat of a nasty eternity hanging over their heads. God says He will not be mocked and all will find out soon enough exactly who is King of Kings.

In Matthew 24 the disciples have come to Jesus privately and asked Him about when the things that He has prophesied will happen. First, he tells them that all of the stones that make up the temple building will be thrown. It happens 70 yrs AD and as for the “end of the age? pay attention: Starting with v5 For many will come in my name, claiming, “I am the Christ” and will deceive many. You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it hat you are not alarmed. such things must happen, but in end is still to come. Nation will rise up against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. there will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All of these are the beginning of the birth pains. Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death and you will be hated by all nations because of me. at that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people.  Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

If you want to know about the end of the world, all you have to do is continue to read the chapter. Jesus was very specific about the coming events.  Even in verse 32, Israel becoming a nation (the fig tree which it is called here), He prophesied and truly, 1948 Israel was reborn as a nation. Jesus talks about His coming, that it will be as it was in the days of Noah. For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage up to the day Noah entered the Ark and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. But do you remember why there had to be a flood at all? It was because God had looked down upon the earth and had seen “how great man’s wickedness had become.” That is how it will be when Jesus comes. Two will be in the field, one will be taken (the believer) and one will be left. Jesus told us to be ready. Are you ready?

Thirty five or forty years ago, I read a book named  Tortured For Christ by Richard Wurmbrand. It made a profound impression upon me. Just in the last year, I have come upon the organization he and his wife (Sabina who also underwent severe persecution, torture and imprisonment for Jesus’ sake). It is called The Voice of The Martyrs. I have read several of their books and stories through their newsletters. Please check them out at http://www.persecution.com  Another organization that I think very highly of is Gospel for Asia. I get their books and newsletters too. These organizations, along with Samaritan’s Purse are acting as the hands and feet of Jesus all over the world. VOM and Gospel for Asia are actively involved in sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know enough about Billy Graham’s son, to believe that while the organization Samaritan’s Purse, takes take of the physical body of a person, it is always also ministering to the spiritual. Jesus said for what gain is it to have your life for a short time here, but lose for eternity?

So I would ask you again? Are you ready?  Or are you one of those people I speak with day in and day out that are empty and missing something vital in their lives but they just don’t know what exactly it is? God says “If you seek you will find me.”  I am living proof.

 

 

 

 

AND SO IT GOES…

I think everyone knows I had really hoped for great health and no more surprises. But as Ken Copeland on a re-broadcast message today said. “You are never going to have a life free from troubles. It will manifest in many different ways, but you will always have troubles, but remember that Jesus said He had overcome the world.” I woke up Saturday morning with severe double vision, a crooked smile and an awful headache. So instead of going to a church get-together, we went to the ER. My first time in this part of the state. The doctor said I had had a “mini stroke” or TIA.  They admitted me pretty quickly to the “stroke center floor”. I spent the rest of Saturday and most of Sunday undergoing tests. They started my physical therapy this morning as I did have a problem on my left side with my leg and arm. But if any of you remember last year and the stroke on March 15th, you know this was mild indeed!! And how grateful I am to be talking and walking!  

My stay wasn’t as pleasant for a lot of reasons this time, but there were some good things that came out of it as there always are, because God says that “all things work together for those that love Him”. I was completely loved on my the members of my church family. My Sunday School leaders, my deacon, my pastor, my girlfriend and her granddaughter, they all came. Different times and days; it was really precious for me. My sweet husband read the Psalms to me because I couldn’t read anything very well for those first two days. I guess the most important time was my time with the Lord. If you know me at all, you know I was talking to Him and asking  lots of questions! But we had good conversations and while I don’t have many answers, I do have peace that my Father always loves me, knows right where I am, and is in perfect control of the situation.

My pastor reminded me of the 20th Psalm when he came to visit. As he read it to me, I knew that I had prayed specifically about some things that were happening in my life in January 2012.  Now reading it again, I see that the Lord has answered me in ways I couldn’t have even imagined!! (yes, I was blogging then, look in my index to read the crazy things that were going on then!)  But I do want to write out the Psalm here. Perhaps it will mean something to someone else. We are living in crazy, dangerous, but exciting times. NOW is the time to call upon the Lord if you have not! The time is short. Remember, Jesus said that we should be looking for Him to come and get us when we once again have a world like the days of Noah. And we certainly do now. It is so simple to call upon the Lord God to be saved. He says if you search for me, you will find me. He says open the door of your heart and ask me to come in and I will stay with you forever and I will be your Lord and Savior.

Psalm 20  May the Lord shower you when you are in distress; may the name of the God of Jacob protect you. May he send you help from the sanctuary and grant you support from Zion. May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings. May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. We will shout for joy when you are victorious and will lift up our banners in the name of our God. May the Lord grant all your requests. Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm. O Lord, save the king! Answer us when we call!

What a beautiful picture of a personal God who is interested in everything about us and loves us. This is one of the biggest differences between our Father God and the god of the Muslims. Their “Allah” is a god of vengeance and wrath. He is not personal at all, as in God is my Father. My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, His Son, but equally God came and died for me AND for this world, most of which hated Him then and hate Him now. He is the God of Peace-everlasting, overwhelming, and unexplainable, peace. Many Muslim people are coming to know my Jesus, because they do seek the one true God.

If anyone reads this who does not know my Jesus, leave me a comment and an email or a phone number, let’s talk!

Goodnight and God bless,

Cindy

 

June 13th Was My Birthday!

IMG_0615As many of you know, I consider it quite an accomplishment when I get to celebrate another birthday! And so it was this year too! First, I should count my many blessings: my husband of 34 years whom I love so much! My wonderful kids-actually grown women now and son-in-law, and 3 fabulous grand girls! Then there are all of my extended family, my 5 siblings and their families. I have such great sib in-laws, and nieces and nephews and 2 grand-nephews. Then there are my cousins and their families. I look back through the pictures of my life and it has passed so fast so far! I have so many wonderful memories. Not that I plan on stopping making memories, but today I feel very blessed. The picture which I will attach and am going to try to change on the Gravatar is what we took last Friday night. I was full of fresh oysters, shrimp and pompano (a wonderful fish)! All fixed at home, so far we do it better than anybody we’ve found locally! And I do make this wonderful salsa to go with the fish and shrimp. Marvelous!

As I have said so many times, it is the Lord’s blessing that I am here. We do believe that we are living in Paradise on earth anyway, back in FL. I have been able to find some genuinely caring doctors who have gone above and beyond to see to my care. I thought that I would simply see a breast reconstruction surgeon when I got to FL as that was what I was cautioned by my oncologist. I had a lump that was needle biopsied after an MRI couldn’t tell clearly what the lump was. When I brought the MRI to the FL surgeon and we discussed the lump, he said he wasn’t as concerned with getting that out as he was with the picture of my other breast. He showed us that it clearly showed the implant was millimeters from pushing through my skin! This would have been catastrophic on many levels he said. Immediate overwhelming infection, and less so, they couldn’t put the implant back in for 6-12 months. He emphasized the need for immediate surgery which I couldn’t believe they got approved so quickly with my insurance company. Once he got in, he said he found a mess. The previous breast surgeon I had after my double mastectomy had put in silicone implants, one that ruptured. When he replaced it, he never bothered to clean out the silicone. So it’s been flowing around loose in my body for all these years. It probably has something to do with the immunity disorder that I have as I have read that the silicone ruptures did lead to immunity issues in people. All I can say is it’s a good thing he is retired!!! Because of all the mess, it took 3 hours to do my surgery.  This surgeon has been incredible. I asked him about his bill and he said I would never see one. I asked if he was sure that Mentor would pay for my implants, he said absolutely. The hospital care was great too. Even his follow-up care has been above-board. He saw me in the office on a Sunday last week because of course, I have some infection. But he wanted to check me himself instead of sending me to the ER. Can you believe that? And he had already driven an hour out-of-town to do military stuff for 9 days. He is the only guy they use!!

Today I had another block in my back after seeing a neurosurgeon who wants to do a sacroiliac join fusion which he thinks will help my pain hugely. But the catch is being off of my right leg weight for 6-8weeks and I live in a townhouse. I need a stair lift and right now that isn’t doable anymore than more surgery is–maybe late this fall? In the meantime, I have a great pain management doc and he schedules me really fast. We saw him Wed and I had the block today. I have no pain at all in the joint. It usually takes a few days for the muscle going over to my hip to get the medicine to, but here is hoping it works for a while!

I have had the most difficult of business weeks. I don’t think I could have managed without my devotional and all of the scriptures from Jesus Calling. Please pray for me that next week goes well as it is a very important week of interviews!

So now we have been here 3 months. Slowly making friends with our neighbors and people at the church. It’s been hard with me being down, but I hope to start having people over for dinner! And I can’t wait for Bible Study to start in the fall. Bible Study and Sunday School that’s where you make your best friends.

so I think that is enough of an update for now.

Cindy

 

WE’RE HERE! AND SO HAPPY! AND THE NEWS!!

I told ya’ll I would write when we got all settled, but I have also been waiting on the Lord to tell me what He wanted me to write about besides myself and my wonderful new home and town. Yesterday He gave it to me in the form of an opinion letter in our local daily newspaper. I am so thrilled and surprised that they print the letters that they do! But then I remember that I am living here in the most conservative part of the state. How I wish I could bundle this up and take it and sprinkle it over the cities of America like fairy dust! But only turning back to our Lord will make a difference in people’s actions, their behaviors, their hearts. I have the permission of the permission of the person who wrote this letter to the editor to reprint it here, word for word.  I was told it would be great that the word would go out to more than just our little area. I intend to publish this same letter on my LinkedIn page and Facebook page. I want it to get as much attention as possible. This letter puts so clearly into words all of my thoughts and concerns that I have sometimes expressed here and with my family and friends before, but not so well. This is a beautifully written, crystal clear indictment of those in Washington, DC. 

For those of you who cry “Racist!” when anyone disagrees with or criticizes this president, it’s understandable , because he and his cohorts do it! It is unseemly and demeaning to have the leaders of this great nation broadcast to the world that they are being mistreated or that some legislation won’t be passed because of racism. President Obama, Attorney General Eric Holder,  House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi and Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid all have sunk to this level.

And should you think we conservatives even care about skin color, believe me when I say that those four politicians are equally regarded as demagogues and unworthy of the offices they hold.

It seems that progressives are the racists, because it suits their agenda.

How did this happen? How did those moral, spiritual and mental midgets become leaders of the greatest nation the world has ever known? Where are the giants? Where are the men and women of integrity, wisdom and strong moral character? where are the leaders who care more about people and country than getting elected next time?

If we don’t find the giants soon, we may go down in the annals of history like mighty Rome, destroyed by corruption from within. Our Rome is burning. It is not too late to put out the fire, but the majority in the country will have to wake up and care about our decline. We are on a slippery slope, ceding our freedom and liberty to narcissistic miscreants who are intent on our downfall.

Don’t you just love that letter? Puts it all in perspective, right? Certainly says it better than I ever could have!  I’ll have more to say about our new life and what else is going on real soon, because lot’s of stuff is and I need your prayers.

goodnight…

Surely God Is My Salvation; I Will Trust And Not Be Afraid, Isaiah 12:2

The verse in the title came from my devotional this morning. I should finish it…  “The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation”. The Lord told me that hardships come my way as part of my journey. He is careful as He allows them and exactly how hard they are! But He said to not retreat in fear from the afflictions, since they are among His most favored gifts.  This was from the book JESUS CALLING  by Sarah Young.

Now let me tell you why this was so very important to me this morning. Last night, we had gotten home from a short visit to the Panhandle of Florida (more news on that later) but I had been short of breath and my chest had hurt increasingly as I coughed or laughed. So I had used my nebulizer, taken my other meds and just gone to bed early. I knew there was no way that I wanted to go to the ER on a Saturday night in Atlanta! I slept most of the night propped up on multiple pillows and had a neck pillow for my head.  My husband had thought a heating pad would help, so I used that too. Still we woke up early, not having gotten a lot of sleep. It was a rough night! Oh how much I prayed about NOT going to the hospital again! I prayed in the early morning, really having a running conversation with the Lord because by then, He had told me to go. I begged and pleaded not to have to or even just to go to Immediate Care, but no, He was so insistent. I can’t laugh, because it hurts, but I think now back on our conversation, He was very gentle, but like I said, so compelling me to go there!

So off we went. Everyone thought I had thrown another clot. I kept saying, ” I don’t have sticky blood!”, but the symptoms were there. The problem was that they needed to get an IV in the crook of the arm area. NOT the best vein area for me. I have the tiniest veins! It took 2 IV nurses and a sonogram machine to get the IV in a vein that didn’t blow! I have bruises everywhere else. The good news is/was that it wasn’t another clot! The bad news is that it seems I have pleurisy-and oh my goodness, does it ever hurt! They treat it with steroids, just like my asthma, so once they kick in, perhaps I’ll feel better. Steroids generally gave me energy and took away my RA pain. I certainly pray they will take away the lung pain. I have to admit to being pretty miserable with it.

And yet, I truly can say, thank you Lord! Thank you for the check up which I apparently needed. Yes, He knew that. And yes, I can praise Him through the pain as He is my Strength and my Song. Still, I would appreciate your prayers as I recuperate.