My New Site Look!

I thought after 9 years that it was time for a new look. What do y’all think? I have to thank my fabulous friend Diane for the technical help. I am challenged y’all know!

I did just want to bring your attention to a verse or two today. I can promise you that if you start your day with God, it will make a difference in your day as you go along. You will be aware of His presence and you can trust in His guidance of your thoughts and words as you go along in the day. I know the difference it makes in mine!

Psalm 48:9  Within your temple, O God, we meditate on your unfailing love.

Psalm 5:2-3  Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning, I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.

Deuteronomy 33:27  The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.

Psalm 37:4  Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I think you know by now that I have so many favorite scriptures. And guess what? God always reminds me of them, just when I need to hear them again and be reminded again of His faithfulness. Why we humans can’t learn at the first lesson!!! I hope I have learned His absolute faithfulness by now, but then when I worry or am anxious about something, He reminds me again, “When have I not been faithful to you?”

I realize that some who have read or just know my life story really wonder about God’s really loving me, or my really deep feelings about Him. I can only say that this faith is so deep within me that when someone dies, whether I know them or not, I wonder immediately if they knew my Jesus and hope so. I know that when I read a FB post of longing for peace, searching for it in an article of some kind, I immediately reach out to try to answer about the PRINCE of PEACE! I find that the older I am, the more this is part of my very fabric of ME. I hope that pleases my Heavenly Father and my Savior. Believe me this is not the natural me, it’s just a compelled me.

Just some thoughts…

Cindy

My Thoughts on My God

This is a reply that I wrote to someone today about my thoughts on God. I thought I would share as I felt as if I had worshipped Him when I finished writing.

In the first chapter of the Book of John, verse 12, it says ” But as many as RECEIVED HIM, to them He gave them the right (the Latin word is power) to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name. So this is where I would say that the Lord God is in ME, because I’ve asked Him and the Holy Spirit to come and live in me (Rev 3:20)…so there is no separation between me and my Father God. In John 14:6, Jesus says I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. So that creation out there for the most part has rejected God or followed false gods as they have from the beginning. If you believe the creation story in Genesis (and I do) then you know that Adam and Eve wanted to have the knowledge that they were promised by Satan and turned from God’s direction to have it. People are still doing that today. I would tell you that besides my coming to faith, my life really took off when I began to study God’s Word. It truly changed my life. It is His love letter to His children. Certainly I read other things, but not about other gods or beliefs. They can do nothing for me. My God is Faithful always.  He says to seek Him with all your heart and you will find Him. He says to try Him, but not to test HIm. He will never fail you. He never lets you go once He has your hand. Sometimes I feel far away because of my actions or my words and when I come back and apologize, He says, “I never left you. I had you the whole time.” If you knew my whole story, then you would know the Truth about our God. He does miracles. He leads and I follow, He guides, He answers. He is not a THING up there somewhere, but a real, living God, Almighty in ALL things! I am proud to worship HIM!

Cindy

God Continues to Remain Faithful

Now I know you are saying, “Well of course, Cindy!” And I am too, but sometimes you just have to acknowledge how very faithful HE is, even when we are not! I’ve had a rough year as you know. Last week, my husband had Salmonella poisoning and thank the Lord, they finally figured out what it was and gave him the right meds. I am so grateful for medicines. Did you know that penicillin was discovered during WWII? Can you imagine what might have happened in your life without it being available? I know I wouldn’t be here! But you know that I am always saying that the Lord has a plan for our lives. I believe it so strongly. This week, I am struggling with my lungs. It just seems that, it’s always something. Everything that happens with me, even the bad stuff, somehow gives me opportunity to share Jesus with whomever HE brings to me. Even customer service reps when I am complaining about the bill being incorrect or the service. It’s just amazing to me, really. Trust me, this isn’t something I do consciously! It just happens. God makes the conversations happen.

We are to go to Mayo again later this summer for more testing. I am really pleased with all of the people I am met so far. I am just sorry that I have to go through it all. My hopes are that they will have some answers on how to better my lung condition and how my esophagus impacts that. Doesn’t look like a lot of fun to me! Once I have all the results, I’ll be more forthcoming, but right now I think there’s a lot of guessing going on.

I turned 67 this month! A lot of people ask me why I still am working! Well, because I love it, of course and God hasn’t told me to stop either. But again, there sometimes people to speak with in my work too, so I understand and am to carry on!

Today’s devotional from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling, is just perfect for what I am saying:  

I  AM THE TRUTH: the One who came to set you free. As the Holy Spirit controls your mind and actions more fully, you become free in Me. You are increasingly released to become the one I created you to be. This is a work that I do in you as you yield to My Spirit. I can do My best handiwork when you sit in the stillness of My Presence, focusing your entire being on Me.

Let your thoughts burst freely upon your consciousness, stimulating abundant Life. I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. As you follow Me, I lead you along paths of newness: ways you have never imagined. Don’t worry about what is on the road up ahead. I want you to find your security in knowing Me, the One who died to set you free.

John 8:32   Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

John 14:6  Jesus answered “I am the Way and the Truth and the LIfe. No one comes to the Father except thru me. 

Philippians 2:13   For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose.

 

All very important truths. Please take them into your heart.

Cindy

WAITING

This is my devotional today…from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling. I am sharing it because this seems to be the story of my life. Waiting to get better, waiting for people to call me back, for deals to close, for the weather to change…anything and everything at all.  But the Lord says in Lamentations 3:24-26 …The Lord is my portion: therefore I will wait for him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him: it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

“Waiting on ME means directing your attention to ME in hopeful anticipation of what I will do. It entails trusting ME with every fiber of your being, instead of trying to figure things out yourself.  Waiting on ME is the way I designed you to live: all day, every day. I created you to stay conscious of me as you go about your daily duties.

I have promised many blessings to those who wait on ME: renewed strength,  living above one’s circumstances, resurgence of hope, awareness of MY continual Presence. Waiting on ME enables you to glorify ME by living in deep dependence on ME, ready to do MY will. It also helps you to enjoy ME; in MY Presence is fullness of Joy.”

Now having read this, perhaps you see why it meant a lot to me today. There are promises there for me and others if we will just wait on our Lord to do the things HE has promised He will do. Of course its hard to wait patiently! If you know me, you that is my greatest weakness! Still, I admit to being worn out. I need to just rest in the knowledge that HE is taking care of my every need–physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I hope you can too.

Cindy

 

It’s Hard To Believe It’s Been Five Months…

However, I have just been through the hardest months of my life! As I look back over all I have ever been through, I have often wondered, except for the Lord, I know I would have never made it! That is certainly true of these last few months! Except that this time, I got impatient and angry. I decided it wasn’t fair, in all honesty. I had just had enough. You see in October, I contracted this weird inner ear/balance issue called labrynthitis. Didn’t really get over that before I came down with MRSA and then had to be treated with IV antibiotics, the  first two of which was highly allergic to! But I went every single day from Thanksgiving until February 1, eventually having to have surgery to clean it out. It is a nasty bug and it can always come back.  Then February 4th, I went into the hospital with clots and severe asthma. I spent a week in the hospital with that.

The Lord says He always has a purpose for what He allows in our lives. He definitely believes in “those teachable moments.” Mine came Friday night watching some different people on Christian TV (the 5th). There were so many things said that just broke my heart. I could see that I was exactly where I needed to be. I had already been introduced to new doctors that for the first time in my life actually seemed to get that certain issues that I thought should be addressed would be addressed. Hopefully this isn’t TMI, but I have a clotting problem obviously as this is the third time for clots in my lungs (see my posts from July 2012) and I have had 3 strokes. The hematologist asked me if I was northern European by descent (Scottish, Irish, English)-yes to all. It turns out, they have a known clotting issue. So I find out on this Tuesday if that is one of my problems. The pulmonologist is also first-rate. He has seen me 3 times since I got out of the hospital, even had to send me back last week as I was in the middle of another attack plus bronchitis. He does believe that there are medicines that with the right testing, my life can be turned around. But mostly, I realized, I needed an attitude adjustment!!

On top of that three weeks to the day that I had gone into the hospital, I had to put my husband in as his heart began to fail again. Unfortunately some very poor cardiologists made some bad choices for him in taking him off of his heart medications in the last 2 years and that is pretty much why he is in trouble now, according to the new cardiologist we have. Please pray for him especially! He has prescribed a brand new congested heart failure medicine for him, plus there is going to be lots of new testing in the next several months. We are hoping that he won’t have to have a new pacemaker/defibrillator installed in the fall.

Today’s devotional from JESUS CALLING by SARAH YOUNG is very special to me.

“Trust Me One Day  At A Time. This keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those of you who have been deeply wounded. My Spirit within you is your resident Tutor, helping you in this supernatural endeavor. Yield to His gentle touch; be sensitive to His prompting.

Exert your will to trust Me in all circumstances. Don’t let your need to understand distract you from My Presence. I will equip you to get through this day victoriously, as you live in deep dependence on Me. Tomorrow is busy worrying about itself; don’t get tangled up in its worry-webs. Trust Me one day at a time.”

Psalm 84:12 O Lord Almighty, blessed is the man who trust in you.

Matthew 6:34 therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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Please understand that I am NOT saying that I do this well at all! I don’t. I haven’t. I am trying. I am sharing this out of my deepest thankfulness for people in my life who have loved me, prayed for me, supported me, cared for me anyway-even when I was so desperate and angry and so weary I wasn’t sure I could go on. Thank the Savior that He understands all of this. That there is such infinite GRACE!

Cindy

How Faithful Is Our Lord God!

This morning when I woke up I was honestly a little tired as I had an 18 hour day the day before. But the Lord said to me, “Get up! I want time with you this morning!” So hard as it was, I got up. How happy I am that I was obedient!

Today, the Lord took me to Proverbs 2: 1-7 in particular, but the whole chapter is good! Let me write out those seven verses for you. If you will receive My sayings and treasure them within your heart. Make your ear attentive to wisdom. Incline your heart to understanding: For if you cry for discernment, Lift your voice for understanding: If you see her as silver and search for her as for hidden treasure; Then you will discern the fear of the Lord, and the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom; From His mouth comes knowledge and understanding. He stores up sound wisdom for the upright; He is a shield to those who walk in integrity.

What was amazing about this particular passage was that I have been praying for wisdom and discernment and knowledge. And here is the Lord reminding me, because all of these verses were underlined in my Bible from previous readings, that all I need to do is ask Him. I have hidden away His sayings in heart for many years now. Still, I am not always wise in my words. This is something I really desire. And so I have been praying and asking. First it was for the right family words and He even opened my eyes to Christian authors who write the best books on family relationships I have ever read. Today, though, He gave me the answers I had been seeking to a presentation I have to make with my partner in November. It is extremely important. I didn’t even know quite how to start, but my Lord did and laid it out. It was quite amazing. It will involve everyone that is attending, which is exactly how it will succeed. 

As I was sharing the scripture that I had gotten this morning with my husband and then my feeling the pressure of the presentation, to say what I know. He replied that in my little grey cells (brain) I have so much stuff stored there from 36 years of recruiting that he was confident, I would put it together. I have always been so fortunate to have him so supportive of me and what I do. He was so confident. Then later as I began to speak with my partner and this all came together (of course after I had read him the same passage!) all I could do with every idea was say, “thank you, Lord Jesus.”

So all of this is just more confirmation that He is going to continue to heal me. I am better today. My blood pressure was lower this morning than in a long time. I am starting to walk carefully, unassisted, for short distances! Really great after 22 days!

Cindy

NEW CHALLENGES

I know that I have said time and again how faithful our Lord is, but this summer again in particular instances, He has shown once again how loving and involved in each life, He is! As I speak with people each day, I am still astounded at how He leads me to certain people who either need Him or know Him and we can rejoice together! As usual there have been physical challenges as well, part of the reason I haven’t written as much. I have found that most of the time it has been all I could do to do my work for the day. I had thought that after I had back surgery to remove a cyst off of my spine which had wrapped itself around several nerves and caused me great pain and difficulty walking, was really past the bad stuff! I have had blocks in my neck before and I did need that before we were finished with everything. Unfortunately my problem is at C2/3 and they cannot fuse it or I could never move my head again! So I was told the best thing was to burn the nerves and that would take care of the pain. The problem though, has been an extreme side effect called Ataxia. You lose the control of your legs.  Sometimes I am walking and it is just as if I don’t have any legs at all, they give out on me. So I fall or just sit down abruptly. Most of the time, when I am walking, though, my legs just look spastic. My doc has assured me that this will clear up within another week! I hope so. So far, it has been 3 weeks today. What I have read, says 7-10 days. Physical therapy will start working with me this week and see if we can speed up the process.

My other issue is spiking blood pressure. It goes very high and then will get down to a reasonable level. We are working with new meds on that! This is a problem that my mother had. Hers would just go up and down and up and down too. Its very weird. I have a great internist though and like I said brand new medicine to take.

So any of you who know me would know that I would go straight to my Lord God about all this. He has set my path. I know this like I know the back of my hand. Yesterday, He reached out to me through my devotional. Many of you know I read Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. So yesterday was talking about the human body and inevitable effects of aging. That even if I were a superb athlete, which I am NOT, most cannot maintain their fitness over many decades. But this is specifically what it said ” Do not be anxious about the weakness of your body. Instead, view it as the prelude to My infusing energy into your being. Though the process of aging continues, inwardly you grow stronger with the passing years. Those who live close to Me develop an inner aliveness that makes them seem youthful in spite of their years. Let my Life shine through you, and you walk in the Light with Me.” Isn’t that beautiful? And of course the first scripture verse was Psalm 139:14 I will give thanks to Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. This particular scripture is one that I have really gone to the Lord about many times in my life. If you’ve read my stories, you know that I don’t have a perfect body according to human eyes, human thoughts. What My Lord has taught me through all of these things is that I must depend on Him for my very breath and heartbeat; that the people he has me meet through the issues are put there for a purpose. So please pray that I will be mindful of these things as I recover!

I mentioned that God had been faithful, oh so faithful. I cannot begin to count the ways and He wouldn’t want me to! But He has just blessed us so incredibly this summer in ways we never would have dreamed. Still, our Lord knows our heart and our deepest longings. I believe that if we are faithful to Him, He answers us!!! One of the ways I can talk about is my business that finally it seems that it is coming together. I know that I am going to get better as God even went before me and has arranged a business trip (short) to Houston in 3 weeks. I have been wanting to go for a year and now it has all come together in perfect timing for everyone. I know my Lord. I will be ready.

One last thing I will leave you with is from my devotional today. “The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Remember that all good things-your possessions, your family and friends, your health and abilities, your time- are gifts from ME. Instead of feeling entitled to all these blessings, respond to them with gratitude. Be prepared to let go of anything I take from you, but never let go of My Hand!” Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.

Believe me, this is a truth from the Lord. I have had this happen. But He has restored everything. Now, I have to hold onto the lesson.