My New Site Look!

I thought after 9 years that it was time for a new look. What do y’all think? I have to thank my fabulous friend Diane for the technical help. I am challenged y’all know!

I did just want to bring your attention to a verse or two today. I can promise you that if you start your day with God, it will make a difference in your day as you go along. You will be aware of His presence and you can trust in His guidance of your thoughts and words as you go along in the day. I know the difference it makes in mine!

Psalm 48:9  Within your temple, O God, we meditate on your unfailing love.

Psalm 5:2-3  Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning, I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.

Deuteronomy 33:27  The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.

Psalm 37:4  Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.

I think you know by now that I have so many favorite scriptures. And guess what? God always reminds me of them, just when I need to hear them again and be reminded again of His faithfulness. Why we humans can’t learn at the first lesson!!! I hope I have learned His absolute faithfulness by now, but then when I worry or am anxious about something, He reminds me again, “When have I not been faithful to you?”

I realize that some who have read or just know my life story really wonder about God’s really loving me, or my really deep feelings about Him. I can only say that this faith is so deep within me that when someone dies, whether I know them or not, I wonder immediately if they knew my Jesus and hope so. I know that when I read a FB post of longing for peace, searching for it in an article of some kind, I immediately reach out to try to answer about the PRINCE of PEACE! I find that the older I am, the more this is part of my very fabric of ME. I hope that pleases my Heavenly Father and my Savior. Believe me this is not the natural me, it’s just a compelled me.

Just some thoughts…

Cindy

My Thoughts on My God

This is a reply that I wrote to someone today about my thoughts on God. I thought I would share as I felt as if I had worshipped Him when I finished writing.

In the first chapter of the Book of John, verse 12, it says ” But as many as RECEIVED HIM, to them He gave them the right (the Latin word is power) to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name. So this is where I would say that the Lord God is in ME, because I’ve asked Him and the Holy Spirit to come and live in me (Rev 3:20)…so there is no separation between me and my Father God. In John 14:6, Jesus says I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. So that creation out there for the most part has rejected God or followed false gods as they have from the beginning. If you believe the creation story in Genesis (and I do) then you know that Adam and Eve wanted to have the knowledge that they were promised by Satan and turned from God’s direction to have it. People are still doing that today. I would tell you that besides my coming to faith, my life really took off when I began to study God’s Word. It truly changed my life. It is His love letter to His children. Certainly I read other things, but not about other gods or beliefs. They can do nothing for me. My God is Faithful always.  He says to seek Him with all your heart and you will find Him. He says to try Him, but not to test HIm. He will never fail you. He never lets you go once He has your hand. Sometimes I feel far away because of my actions or my words and when I come back and apologize, He says, “I never left you. I had you the whole time.” If you knew my whole story, then you would know the Truth about our God. He does miracles. He leads and I follow, He guides, He answers. He is not a THING up there somewhere, but a real, living God, Almighty in ALL things! I am proud to worship HIM!

Cindy

God Continues to Remain Faithful

Now I know you are saying, “Well of course, Cindy!” And I am too, but sometimes you just have to acknowledge how very faithful HE is, even when we are not! I’ve had a rough year as you know. Last week, my husband had Salmonella poisoning and thank the Lord, they finally figured out what it was and gave him the right meds. I am so grateful for medicines. Did you know that penicillin was discovered during WWII? Can you imagine what might have happened in your life without it being available? I know I wouldn’t be here! But you know that I am always saying that the Lord has a plan for our lives. I believe it so strongly. This week, I am struggling with my lungs. It just seems that, it’s always something. Everything that happens with me, even the bad stuff, somehow gives me opportunity to share Jesus with whomever HE brings to me. Even customer service reps when I am complaining about the bill being incorrect or the service. It’s just amazing to me, really. Trust me, this isn’t something I do consciously! It just happens. God makes the conversations happen.

We are to go to Mayo again later this summer for more testing. I am really pleased with all of the people I am met so far. I am just sorry that I have to go through it all. My hopes are that they will have some answers on how to better my lung condition and how my esophagus impacts that. Doesn’t look like a lot of fun to me! Once I have all the results, I’ll be more forthcoming, but right now I think there’s a lot of guessing going on.

I turned 67 this month! A lot of people ask me why I still am working! Well, because I love it, of course and God hasn’t told me to stop either. But again, there sometimes people to speak with in my work too, so I understand and am to carry on!

Today’s devotional from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling, is just perfect for what I am saying:  

I  AM THE TRUTH: the One who came to set you free. As the Holy Spirit controls your mind and actions more fully, you become free in Me. You are increasingly released to become the one I created you to be. This is a work that I do in you as you yield to My Spirit. I can do My best handiwork when you sit in the stillness of My Presence, focusing your entire being on Me.

Let your thoughts burst freely upon your consciousness, stimulating abundant Life. I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. As you follow Me, I lead you along paths of newness: ways you have never imagined. Don’t worry about what is on the road up ahead. I want you to find your security in knowing Me, the One who died to set you free.

John 8:32   Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

John 14:6  Jesus answered “I am the Way and the Truth and the LIfe. No one comes to the Father except thru me. 

Philippians 2:13   For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose.

 

All very important truths. Please take them into your heart.

Cindy

WAITING

This is my devotional today…from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling. I am sharing it because this seems to be the story of my life. Waiting to get better, waiting for people to call me back, for deals to close, for the weather to change…anything and everything at all.  But the Lord says in Lamentations 3:24-26 …The Lord is my portion: therefore I will wait for him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him: it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

“Waiting on ME means directing your attention to ME in hopeful anticipation of what I will do. It entails trusting ME with every fiber of your being, instead of trying to figure things out yourself.  Waiting on ME is the way I designed you to live: all day, every day. I created you to stay conscious of me as you go about your daily duties.

I have promised many blessings to those who wait on ME: renewed strength,  living above one’s circumstances, resurgence of hope, awareness of MY continual Presence. Waiting on ME enables you to glorify ME by living in deep dependence on ME, ready to do MY will. It also helps you to enjoy ME; in MY Presence is fullness of Joy.”

Now having read this, perhaps you see why it meant a lot to me today. There are promises there for me and others if we will just wait on our Lord to do the things HE has promised He will do. Of course its hard to wait patiently! If you know me, you that is my greatest weakness! Still, I admit to being worn out. I need to just rest in the knowledge that HE is taking care of my every need–physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I hope you can too.

Cindy

 

Update March 2018

It’s hard to believe that it’s been so very long since I’ve written anything here. I can only apologize as life got even crazier than last year.

After I was diagnosed with orthostatic hypotension, I did meet with an great new neurologist. Of course he’s in Panama City, but so worth the drive. After the best, most thorough neurological exam I’ve ever had, I asked if he had a thought as to what I have. Yes, he thought I might have MSA (Multiple system atrophy) which is the worst part of Autonomic Dysfunction. Of course I had never heard of either, so I did quite a bit of research, even bought the book The Dysautonomia Project.  Talk about eye opening! Dysautonomia is why I have had so many things wrong with me over the years that I have recounted in this very blog! Autonomic Dysfunction means that the the things that your body does normally, mine does not. Mine is broken and has been for years! Unfortunately they really don’t teach much at all about this in medical school. This is why I’ve gone so very many years without a diagnosis. Think about all of the things your body does without your thinking about it! Starting at the top without involving the actual brain—your eyes, blinking, tearing. Mine have been “the driest any Ophthalmologist has seen ever”   I now have to put RX drops in 4 times/day. My nose. I think I’ve already blogged about getting an aspergillosis fungus in my sphenoid sinus back in 1998. What a miracle it was that Mayo Clinic identified it and operated “just in time” to save my life. And by the way, one only gets exotic germs like this with a compromised immune system, but this was years before I understood that. I went through many more surgeries—cysts in my throat, my gallbladder, full of infection and stones, my colon and kidneys, stones and bubbles due to adhesions that I grow anywhere and everywhere. It was why I had to have a total hysterectomy at twenty-two. Adhesions had destroyed my tubes. I had cysts all over my ovaries. What a miracle it was for me to finally have a child at twenty one, thirteen months previously when I had been told I would never get pregnant or if I did, carry that child to term as I had lost three very early in the pregnancies. Continue reading “Update March 2018”

It’s Never Over Till It’s Over!

Thank  God that He says He never lets go of me! Not even for a second. He says “He holds me by His strong right hand.”

Yesterday after having been given a diagnosis of orthostatic hypotension two weeks ago, we found out that the condition is incurable and is not easily managed. This means that somehow, even with medication,  my blood pressure goes to extreme highs and and lows. The lows when I am standing, which mean dizzy and lightheaded. Not fun at all, makes one nauseous and I have to be very careful not to fall because of the blood thinners I am on.

When I am sitting, usually in the mid afternoon is when the BP spikes and gives me the worst of headaches. They really don’t want me to take a lowering BP pill, because that negates the med that I took in the am to raise it.

The doc says this is a nervous system problem and so I need a super neurologist. He’s found me one I hope to see in the next week or two. My poor brain has had 3 strokes and two spinal meningitis infections. That plus the fact that I take powerful lung meds and powerful heart meds and already have to take some pretty heavy duty neuro drugs. I need someone really knowledgeable to manage all of them and my various conditions as I go through this journey.

But regardless of this, I know who’s really in charge– the One who is in charge of everything and everyone. I know Him personally. I know I can depend on Him for my everything, every need.

I thank Him I have been able to work still and that I have the greatest support from my husband and family. So even if I can’t be as independent or even as active as I’ve been lately (which isn’t that much), again I say IT ISN’T OVER TILL IT’S OVER!!

 

 

 

A Rough Year!

I knew I had been neglecting my blog, but didn’t realize for how long! Still, I have to admit that 2016 and so far 2017, have been difficult health wise. However, I do believe I am beginning to make some progress. I think I finally have the correct diagnoses for my problems and the correct doctors. They have really stepped up with getting me meds and trying different ones to see which might be best.

More importantly, God has blessed us abundantly. We are in a new home we were able to purchase in January that is the perfect bungalow for the 2 of us, yet has room to expand for guests. (remember I have kids and grandkids!)  Everyday that I can go outside and look at a sunset or at the stars at night, I just thank my Heavenly Father all over again!

My Lord is still telling me to trust Him with my life and health. He is still sending people to speak with when I am in the hospital, as He always has. I don’t understand that mission! I would certainly prefer something that required being healthy, but it is what it is! Certainly not what I seek.

I realize this is short and sweet, but I wanted people to know I’m still here by God’s Grace!

Cindy