Its Late, But So Much Has Happened…

Those of you who have been following me for a while know that my life can change on a dime! And Sunday it did. I had been doing so great, but sitting there as the service was starting up, I was having trouble getting enough air. I thought if I could just get out in the atrium with my inhaler to a vent, I wouldn’t cause a stir. Au contraire! I got to the vent, took a hit off the inhaler and promptly passed out. I heard, “there she goes!” Thank goodness there were people around me and someone to catch me, I guess. Someone went and got my husband and my purse which has a little personal air spirometer, but I couldn’t hardly make the ball go up. So I knew I was in trouble. And then once we got into the car, my right arm starting just aching horribly, then my chest. I felt a lot of pressure. We were too far from our hospital, so we went to a small city hospital ( never again) but of course once I was stable and had to stay because of my heart issues ( you can’t leave against med advice or medicare won’t pay).  We hear a man screaming down the hall, “let me die, I want to die. I want to commit suicide.” Over and over he was yelling and screaming that!  I knew right then we were there to pray for that man. Which of course we began to do. I couldn’t know his name because of HIPPA of course, but God knows who he is. 

Because for some reason they didn’t get my BP med dosage correct, my BP soared and with it came the most awful headache I’ve ever had. It was with me all the time I was there. I kept telling them I needed more meds. I got them just as I left but it took me 3 doses of meds when I got home and this morning to get it back to what is normal for me and no sick headache. I did have absolutely wonderful nurses! Sunday night, my coughing went south and I was running out of strength to cough anymore ( by then I’d been at it for over 3 hours. Hard, rib cracking, muscle pulling, coughing. Finally I got some Solumedrol-my miracle drug, and no coughing for over 2 hours! I also got cough syrup and Benadryl  2 hours before the Solumedrol, but they didn’t work. That’s what happens when things go so far. NOTHING works except Solumedrol. How thankful I am that I live in a time that the medicine exists!!

The reason I had to stay over night was to have a cardiac stress in the am. But honestly, I have never had a stress test that took all day! Management agreed with me when I spoke with them late in the afternoon. If you’ve never had one, you can’t eat or drink or take your heart meds until you’ve the test completed, so you see why my body went a little nuts!!  At least it was over and we left at 7 pm. 

So what else could good could possibly have come out this? I tell you honestly when you can’t sleep for any reason, that’s one of the best times to commune with the Father and  I had hours. I, of course, was praying about my condition, but He led me  off to so many other subjects. I have to admit, it was kind of wonderful. He was right there and bad as I had it. I knew it and until I started really going downhill, I had been praying and praising for all the blessings, for that man, just for everything He brought to my mind to talk about. I guess I have been a little too busy for all that special time with Him. I write about it. I pray alot, but do I listen? The first time God spoke to me was after I had been on a long praise to Him and just ran out of words. I think He said FINALLY!!! I did apologize. I like to talk, but I have been learning to listen over the years. 

Two things I have learned: One thing He desires, is to be my very best, closest friend. He already knows everything about me. It’s silly when I try to hide anything from Him. He is constantly reminding me that I am His Righteousness. Glory!!! Remember I just wrote there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus. That is truth.

Late enough and it’s long enough, don’t you think? G’ night!

Cindy

 

 

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What Does God Say About Being A Youth?

If you read much of the Bible, you might notice a that God used a lot of very young people! David, when he was anointed King of the Israelites by Samuel in 1 Samuel 16, was barely in his teens. He had a very interesting life, one worth studying for the goodness of it, but also for his failures. We all fail.  Timothy in the New Testament was very young as well when Paul appointed him as a pastor. He even reminded Timothy to not let others look down on his because of his youth! 1 Timothy 4: 12  Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct,, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe.  I wish I had been willing to follow Him, just because of this verse!

So this takes me to the second post of today. I do remember well, what it was to be young. Really young, as a child, when my daddy wouldn’t let me do what I wanted to do, I’d tell him, he was a mean daddy! The audacity that I had! Where did it come from? Oh, the Bible is pretty clear about that:  Romans 3:23  says “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”   You might say,  Cindy, you were just a child! Yes, but I knew right from wrong! Like any child, I wanted my own way. Like any teen, any adult, we all want our own way. But usually our ways are God’s ways, nor His thoughts our thoughts-that’s in Isaiah, by the way.  I’ll put it another way. Do you have to teach a small child to lie? No, of course not. Children do it naturally and have to be taught to tell the truth. It’s our very nature to be this way. People are not basically good, again, it’s a taught or chosen way. This is why I get so very upset when I see teens and young adults or even older adults (who should know better!) who have obviously not been taught the whole truth, maybe all the history, or outright lies. No one should be manipulated to do any of these things we are seeing on any of the networks or in any publications of any kind.

I remember very well how it felt to be a teenager! You might say, that was a long, long time ago, Cindy and things are different now. Children and teens are different now. I would agree that some things are different. We have the internet, more channels than we need on TV, X-box or whatever video games-so many with great violence. And movies that are graphic in their violence and sex. I don’t think that means that morals, courtesy or faith had to change. IF, ANYTHING, THEY NEED TO BE STRONGER! I know how hard that is as a teen when all you want to do is just fit in, be a part of the crowd. In my case, the -in-crowd.  However, my mother was forever saying, “Be a leader, Cindy, not a follower.”  Still, I followed as closely as possible, to a point, admittedly, but mostly I was there. You see, in those days, I never asked God what I should do. I didn’t want to hear His answers.

I have already written how I came to know Jesus personally at age 20 in a previous post. I won’t go into the details here except to say if you think you have messed up your life, made impossible to forgive decisions, taken the wrong path, the wrong stuff, been abused or been the abuser, I can tell you without any doubt in my mind or my heart that there is nothing that He will not forgive your for, except if you don’t accept His Son and what He did in His Sacrifice for you. That’s it. It is so simple. How to come to God. A living God who loves YOU. Let Him put His Spirit in you and His arms around you, Today!!

Cindy

Today’s Content: Our Thoughts

Some people say they can’t control their thoughts! Especially when they are young! They seem to bounce hither and yon and with the influence of the internet, TV, movies, games. Well, I guess it’s obvious where some peoples’ thoughts are alot! But God says that we are to direct our conscious thoughts towards Him, in worship, in prayer, in trusting, in thankfulness. Oh, let me count the many, many ways!!

It is our choice to reject thoughts we know don’t please Him-negative thoughts, anxious thoughts, even evil thoughts.  But He says that if we are quick to confess the sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us and purify us just that quickly! (my paraphrase from 1 John 1:9)  If we do this on a regular basis, your thoughts will keep your mind in His Presence and your feet following His path. I can tell by living, that this choice isn’t easy, but it is incredible when I do it.

Some added scriptures here are:  Palsm 20:6-8  Now I know that the Lord save His anointed; He will answer him from heaven from His holy heaven, With the saving strength of His right hand. Some boast in chariots, and some in horses; But we will boast in the name of the Lord, our God. They have bowed down and fallen; But we have risen and stood upright.   this is Zacharias prophesing when his John was born, here is the part about going before the Messiah:  Luke 1: 76-79  “And you child, will be called the prophet of the Most High; For you will on  BEFORE THE LORD TO PREPARE HIS WAYS; To give to His people the knowledge of salvation By the forgiveness of their sins, Because of the tender mercy of our God, With which the Sunrise from on high shall visit us, To SHINE UPON THOSE WHO SIT IN DARKNESS AND THE SHADOW OF DEATH,  To guide our feet into the way of peace.”     How awesome were those scriptures for us? Take them into your heart and mind and meditate on them!

 

 

Presentation

Today I read David Jeremiah’s devotional. It certainly hit home! He is talking about how appearance has become a dominant factor in our age. People get cosmetic surgery, weight reduction surgery, do the latest and greatest in workouts, and starvation diets. Then, there are the latest clothes, phones, cars… you know what I’m talking about. But from God’s point of view, appearance doesn’t really seem to matter. Elijah, was known as a hairy man wearing a leather belt around his waist. And was also known as a “troublemaker” and eccentric. In fact, Elijah was put on the shelf, so to speak by God for 3 years to learn, while there was a severe drought that he had told King Ahab that God was going to bring and it wouldn’t stop until he said so. But as a man, except for the fact that he was hairy and wore this leather belt,  was not recognizable for being a great man of God. (Read the story 1 Kings 17- 18:39)

So it was for John the Baptist, also. Clothed with camel’s hair and leather belt, he ate locusts (grasshoppers) and wild honey.  When Israel was looking for a successor to King Saul,  Samuel was told by God that the appearance didn’t matter, 1 Samuel 16:7. In Isaiah 53:2, he said there would be nothing about the Messiah’s appearance to make him stand out. 

Last night my husband said to me, you maybe a pretty woman Cindy, but what’s really been important to me in the long run is that you are a good woman. I know what he meant by that–it’s really the Jesus in us that makes us attractive–if we let Him do so and not hide Him in a closet! David Jeremiah says that part of our presentation to others is the “fragrance of Christ” as His life radiates through ours. Probably a better way of saying it.

For me personally, this was very telling at the end: Some flowers must be broken or bruised before they emit any fragrance.  So true of me!

Cindy

My Thoughts on My God

This is a reply that I wrote to someone today about my thoughts on God. I thought I would share as I felt as if I had worshipped Him when I finished writing.

In the first chapter of the Book of John, verse 12, it says ” But as many as RECEIVED HIM, to them He gave them the right (the Latin word is power) to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name. So this is where I would say that the Lord God is in ME, because I’ve asked Him and the Holy Spirit to come and live in me (Rev 3:20)…so there is no separation between me and my Father God. In John 14:6, Jesus says I am the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. So that creation out there for the most part has rejected God or followed false gods as they have from the beginning. If you believe the creation story in Genesis (and I do) then you know that Adam and Eve wanted to have the knowledge that they were promised by Satan and turned from God’s direction to have it. People are still doing that today. I would tell you that besides my coming to faith, my life really took off when I began to study God’s Word. It truly changed my life. It is His love letter to His children. Certainly I read other things, but not about other gods or beliefs. They can do nothing for me. My God is Faithful always.  He says to seek Him with all your heart and you will find Him. He says to try Him, but not to test HIm. He will never fail you. He never lets you go once He has your hand. Sometimes I feel far away because of my actions or my words and when I come back and apologize, He says, “I never left you. I had you the whole time.” If you knew my whole story, then you would know the Truth about our God. He does miracles. He leads and I follow, He guides, He answers. He is not a THING up there somewhere, but a real, living God, Almighty in ALL things! I am proud to worship HIM!

Cindy

God Continues to Remain Faithful

Now I know you are saying, “Well of course, Cindy!” And I am too, but sometimes you just have to acknowledge how very faithful HE is, even when we are not! I’ve had a rough year as you know. Last week, my husband had Salmonella poisoning and thank the Lord, they finally figured out what it was and gave him the right meds. I am so grateful for medicines. Did you know that penicillin was discovered during WWII? Can you imagine what might have happened in your life without it being available? I know I wouldn’t be here! But you know that I am always saying that the Lord has a plan for our lives. I believe it so strongly. This week, I am struggling with my lungs. It just seems that, it’s always something. Everything that happens with me, even the bad stuff, somehow gives me opportunity to share Jesus with whomever HE brings to me. Even customer service reps when I am complaining about the bill being incorrect or the service. It’s just amazing to me, really. Trust me, this isn’t something I do consciously! It just happens. God makes the conversations happen.

We are to go to Mayo again later this summer for more testing. I am really pleased with all of the people I am met so far. I am just sorry that I have to go through it all. My hopes are that they will have some answers on how to better my lung condition and how my esophagus impacts that. Doesn’t look like a lot of fun to me! Once I have all the results, I’ll be more forthcoming, but right now I think there’s a lot of guessing going on.

I turned 67 this month! A lot of people ask me why I still am working! Well, because I love it, of course and God hasn’t told me to stop either. But again, there sometimes people to speak with in my work too, so I understand and am to carry on!

Today’s devotional from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling, is just perfect for what I am saying:  

I  AM THE TRUTH: the One who came to set you free. As the Holy Spirit controls your mind and actions more fully, you become free in Me. You are increasingly released to become the one I created you to be. This is a work that I do in you as you yield to My Spirit. I can do My best handiwork when you sit in the stillness of My Presence, focusing your entire being on Me.

Let your thoughts burst freely upon your consciousness, stimulating abundant Life. I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. As you follow Me, I lead you along paths of newness: ways you have never imagined. Don’t worry about what is on the road up ahead. I want you to find your security in knowing Me, the One who died to set you free.

John 8:32   Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

John 14:6  Jesus answered “I am the Way and the Truth and the LIfe. No one comes to the Father except thru me. 

Philippians 2:13   For it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose.

 

All very important truths. Please take them into your heart.

Cindy

WAITING

This is my devotional today…from Sarah Young, Jesus Calling. I am sharing it because this seems to be the story of my life. Waiting to get better, waiting for people to call me back, for deals to close, for the weather to change…anything and everything at all.  But the Lord says in Lamentations 3:24-26 …The Lord is my portion: therefore I will wait for him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him: it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.

“Waiting on ME means directing your attention to ME in hopeful anticipation of what I will do. It entails trusting ME with every fiber of your being, instead of trying to figure things out yourself.  Waiting on ME is the way I designed you to live: all day, every day. I created you to stay conscious of me as you go about your daily duties.

I have promised many blessings to those who wait on ME: renewed strength,  living above one’s circumstances, resurgence of hope, awareness of MY continual Presence. Waiting on ME enables you to glorify ME by living in deep dependence on ME, ready to do MY will. It also helps you to enjoy ME; in MY Presence is fullness of Joy.”

Now having read this, perhaps you see why it meant a lot to me today. There are promises there for me and others if we will just wait on our Lord to do the things HE has promised He will do. Of course its hard to wait patiently! If you know me, you that is my greatest weakness! Still, I admit to being worn out. I need to just rest in the knowledge that HE is taking care of my every need–physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I hope you can too.

Cindy