I was speaking to a dear friend of mine from Tampa a few nights ago and she reminded me of exactly where I was a year ago. Since I do have a short-term memory issue, about the only thing I can remember is that I was recovering from a pulmonary embolism, a very large deep vein thrombosis-where the clot had come from, and not getting my blood count right from one week to the next (I was taking Coumadin). Regardless of all this, I was working and I know that during this time, God gave me some of the most incredible insights into Himself/The Trinity, that I have ever had, ever thought of, could have imagined.

I know that this very special care of me continued even as it seemed to many probably that God wasn’t with me or might even be punishing me. Au contraire!  If you think that for one minute, please go read what exactly silver goes through to be refined! The silversmith never takes his eyes off of the silver that is in the fire-if he does, even for a few seconds, the silver could be destroyed. He knows that, so he never, ever takes his eyes off of the silver when it is the fire. And so  into the fall, struggles with asthma still, then it was December and spinal meningitis. I lost more than money over that illness. If we had any reservations about moving to Atlanta,  I think for sure, they were gone for good at that point.  Christmas came and went, we thought we had found a place with a 3 year lease (God had a better plan of course) and on the day we came home, we found out we didn’t get it.  We’ve been here in an apartment for the first time in our married lives because that was where God wanted us to be for now. Never would I have expected to have had another stroke, been healed, and then moved onto the job of my dreams all in 2 1/2 months time. But that is exactly what happened! Now 90 days into the job, I know that I serve a God of Miracles, an Amazing God, because only He could have put me exactly where I am today versus a year ago.

Of course I can not share what I am doing or even long term expectations, other than to say, again, that God is in this too! I always pray before starting my “hunting”. He knows the hearts of individuals that I need for my clients. He knows where those people are and I believe He leads me there. We both want the absolute best for that person and their life/families life, and the impact it will have on the firm, on clients, on so many people. It is very far reaching, what I do. I try to take care with great responsibility for my role. I hear over and over how ” different ” my approach is. Well, yeah, I approach it from what’s in it for you? not from what’s in it for me? or even for the client. Because in the long run, that’s what I believe God wants me to do. He is interested in my getting the best for whomever I am talking with. Period, end of statement.



I have just come home from one of the most glorious Good Friday Services  I think I have ever attended! The Holy Spirit was there and just blessing us through the music and through the speaking of the Word. What was really special was that my sister had arranged with a couple of her “prayer warrior friends” to anoint me and pray for me before the service. What was REALLY GREAT was that my foot woke up! It had been asleep since I woke up “frozen” that Friday morning the 15th! Now that gives  me REAL HOPE that the rest of the things they prayed for me will happen as well. This important because today I was referred to a hematologist because they can not get my blood numbers to stabilize with the Coumadin I am on. It doesn’t seem to matter if I am on a lot or a little. I can have way too much or way too little-like today-way too little, but two bad nose bleeds and I’ve never had those before! That’s like the opposites of each other! How many times have I remarked I am strangely and wonderfully made??

Now let me tell you about MADDOX!  About midnight right after I posted my request that you pray for him, and you must have started immediately, because his mother said the ketones started coming down after midnight and NOW HE IS HOME! HOME FOR EASTER!! THANK YOU DEAR ONES WHO LOVE JESUS  AND LITTLE ONES TOO!  I found out that Maddox has to have insulin shots 5 times a day. I say, let’s all pray for his total healing so that this is not something he has to deal with the rest of his life. Let him learn early the healing touch of Jesus. So Please Pray and I will let you know when the Lord heals him.   

Now I will close with this blessing from Hebrews about the BLOOD of Jesus which is the only reason we are all here today together and looking forward to celebrating His resurrection on Sunday–because without that shedding of BLOOD There would have been NO RESURRECTION to celebrate.

Hebrews 13: 20-21  May the god of Peace who the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead  our Lord Jesus Christ, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equp you with everything good for doing his will and may he work in us what is what is pleasing to him through Jesus  Christ, to whom be glory for ever  and ever.  Amen. 


And now it has been a  week again! This time, except for a couple of Doctor appointments, I was in all week, but once again dealing with a bacterial infection. and not much   voice either, but God has beenvery plain spoken with me and I have read the most wonderful  scriptures and devotionals t hat were directed right to me in terms of trusting and of course faith.

I have not been given permission to share all of this yet. but I will share what  I can.

the last 2 -3 weeks have been very difficult physically, regardless of being on antibiotics. I have still had C Diff which is not any fun to have  even if you are on meds. and it was still August, my worst asthma month-it has felt like I have had it all month. Now it  is September and I am starting it off the same way!  And not only me, but I have watched as my family has been attacked. My sister’s husband started his chemo this week. Part of  the “cocktail” is Rituxin. He was on it 20 min, when he started reacting.;He had hives, then the nausea , then a small seizure–all of  this totally freaked both my sister and my brother in law out.And did I mention her youngest son had been out with a virus for most of the week, and her car engine blew something up to the tune  $900$ She called me while I was on the phone with my new BSF Bible teacher–so we immediately prayed.  Then my daughter called. She was on the way to the hospital with my 7  yr old granddaughter. She had a pretty bad  case of bacterial pnuemonia!! I reassured my daughter as much as I could, reminding her that she had also had pneumonia twice one winter and her sister once!! That medically things were so much better now and that I was sure that our girl was going to be fine.I would be praying and so would all my great friends.  (of course I was right. the doc thought 4 days. she was only in for 2)

Suddenly my eyes were opened and I could see that my family is being attached even more than usual==I immediately got on my face before the Lord. I asked Him for  protection because I was going to have to confront this  devil -, I am even having to type this a third time-my words keep disappearing on me!  I remind you Satan who won? I did! Because of Jesus!! Go Back to Hell and Leave ME and MY FAMILY alone in the name of Christ Jesus the Son of the Living God!

So let’s go back to last Sunday night and my first scripture. I will type what I can, but there is a lot. I may have to let you look up too.  or I am send you to a particular blog .  Numbers 23: 19-20  God is not a man,  that he should lie, nor a son of man, t hat he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act?  Does he promise and not fulfill? I have received a command to bless;  he has blessed it, and I cannot change it

Is that not just the most beautiful 2 verses? And given to me 2 minutes after I asked for confirmation!  The Lord really wanted me to know, didn’t he?  And then the next day He sent me to Avie’s Place a blog I follow-what a wonderful teacher of the Word she is! Today is was Psalm 119:1658 Great peace have they who love your law, and nothing can make you stumble.  I wait for your salvation, O Lord, and I follow your commands.  I  obey your statutes, for I love them greatly. I obey your precepts and your statutes, for all my ways are known to you.  This post was about peace, the peace you get when you trust absolutely. and then I think this was next although I wondered why it wasn’t 2nd.  It is 1st Peter 5:8 -9   Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil  prowls around likes a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.  Now you see why I needed this verse reminder a little earlier?    

Then we went to Ecclesiastes written by the way by Solomon -son of David, a man after God’s own heart When I read David’s story or even Solomon’s story or anyone’s story for that matter, I know once again that God can forgive anyone, anything, anytime, anywhere–JUST BECAUSE HE LOVES US.  But we do have to be obedient…as Solomon discovered late in life as he also finally found the purpose in life. He had looked for it everywhere,  in everything, But of course our purpose is only fulfilled in our Lord–when He fills up that hole in our hearts  we all come with  —and that hole is only filled by the Holy Spirit of God Himself, then, can you know your purpose. We will be talking about that in the future.”

So my week has been all about the Lord talking trust me, Trust me TRUST ME. The first night that He spoke to me, MY  Lord God said “Cindy, I love you, I love you, I love you, I  love you. ..but you don’t trust me.”…his first words almost and when I said,” no,I do trust you,” He again replied,”” no, you don’t trust me, but you will.”  I have come to find out that Trusting the Lord  with all my heart is the most important  thing to Him NEXT to  Honoring and Loving Him and Putting Him first in all Things.-which is the first and greatest commandment. And I will tell you that it is easier to follow than the learning to trust so completely. How very, very hard it is.But  it is what we are called to do and when the Lord singles you out for something and  He consistently confirms it,  You know you have to do it, even if it scares you, and it doesn’t seem the right thing to do. But Obviously I will know soon if I must do this thing.   and if I must then I will be calling  on you to pray for me like never before. I feel like the t he guy in the Raiders of the Lost Ark or the sequel when t hey   were looking for Jesus’ chalice from the last supper.  He had to take a step out on faith that there was a bridge when there was no evidence of a bridge–but of course as soon as he put his foot out there-it was there for  him. I am hoping for that for me. And I should be able to explain further later this week.



Ten Commandments Award

I have been honored once again–this time for an award that I didn’t even know existed!  Anne, has given  me this–at first I wondered if it was because I came off  too legalistic, too rules oriented, too in the box. But then as I read the Commandments again, the Lord spoke to me and said, no this is truly an award for she recognizes that you, like her follow a Holy, Perfect God-who wants you to be Holy and Perfect too.The great Good News is that Because of Jesus and his Saving Work on the Cross, you don’t have to worry about your lack of ability to follow my Laws perfectly. So Anne, thank you so much. I am truly honored!

Because this is a new award, the rules are a little different than usual. And I am going to follow them!  I have to answer the following 10 questions and then I have to nominate 10 blogs that I think deserve the award…so here goes.

1. Describe yourself in seven words.  whew that’s hard! I am complex !  persistent, extrovert, compassionate, facilitator, loyal, dependable

2.What keeps you up at night? well that depends on the night! sometimes it’s physical  like my asthma, or RA. Sometimes its the need to pray, because God has brought certain things or people to mind.

3.Whom would you like to be?    ME-only a little more fruitful, joy, gentleness, selfcontrol, peace, kindness, love.

4. What are you wearing now?  a sleep camisole and a pair of boxers

5.What scares you?  spiders and snakes

6.What are the best and the worst  things about blogging?    the best things are meeting so many other people who are such terrific people on the same journey as I am on. AND being able to write out  my thoughts and feelings and experiences- well they are but God puts everything in order as it comes from my fingers.     The worst  thing is I never have time to read all I want  to read, comment on all I want to comment on-just get to know others

7.What  was the last website you looked at?  LinkedIn

8. If you could change something about yourself, what  would it be?  After many conversations with God, I understand why I am made the way that I am-and I wouldn’t change any of that –because it goes against His purpose for me.  but I don’t think He’d mind me being less stubborn and hard headed.

9.  Slankets??? I don’t  even know what they are to ask anything about them!

10. Tell us something about the person who nominated you.  Oh that’s easy, in fact I could just repeat what I told her yesterday. She is a lovely, very attractive woman. But what is most attractive about her–having read her heart in her blog is her love for our Savior. This “Jesus”  in a woman’s heart makes her attractive  till she glows I believe. And of course the more you are filled with Jesus’ spirit, the more attractive one becomes… read her heart and her love for Jesus at

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He is the Image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things and in him all things hold together.

I read this passage and if you read it in sections so that you might try to get your mind around it, the first thing I see is that He is the Image of the invisible God-God the Father, Our Creator. In Genesis, it says that God created man in His own image, so it would stand that Jesus also would be the Image of God. He said in John 14:9 That anyone who has seen Him has seen the Father and just before that He had said that if you know me, you would know the Father as well. Image means the exact representation of the likeness. He is saying here that if you have seen me, you have seen God. I am God.

Then we have this little section that says the firstborn of creation! Does this mean that

The Scutum Fidei, a diagram frequently used by...
The Scutum Fidei, a diagram frequently used by Christian apologists to explain the Trinity. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Jesus was a created being? No! He is the firstborn, only Son of God ,which is speaking to his priority. Number 1. He also was the firstborn to die a total death and burial of 3 days only to rise again. He was there in the beginning with God the Father and God the Holy Spirit when things were being created.  Genesis 1:1-2 God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep and the Spirit of God was hovering (vibrating, literally) over the waters. And for the next few days, God was very busy creating till finally the sixth day came. First he created the creatures of the land, livestock and animals of every kind. And He saw that it was good. The God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness.” Man was to rule over  the fish, the birds, the livestock, over all the earth and all the creatures that move upon the ground. So God created man in His own Image. He created them male and female.

Now after Adam and Eve sinned and were thrown out of the Garden and then began to populate the world according to the scriptures, even back to the beginning there was always someone who had to be in charge! So they had kings and rulers, princes and authorities. And although we can not see them, angels had been created as well. hundreds of thousands of angels. And somebody wanted to be in charge of them also. In fact, he wanted to be in charge of heaven as well. But GOD IS GOD! There is NO ONE GREATER, NOT ONE WITH MORE POWER , and so that revolt got put down very quickly. And Hell was prepared for the ANGEL of LIGHT who is SATAN and His angels. Jesus was there and watched him fall.

Again, it repeats all things were created by Him and for Him. And He is before all things. So with every gospel I have read, God was  saying this is my Beloved Son, Whom I Love And With Whom I Am Well Pleased. Wonder what all the people around this baptism thought when they heard those words coming from Heaven? Because here was Jesus Christ, the Son of God coming to John the Baptist to be baptized, why? You know that John asked his cousin? Why, YOU are the SON of  GOD. He knew! He said he wasn’t worthy to untie his sandal laces. But Jesus knew why. First it was an example for all of those who would come after him.  It was Him showing that the Son of God was here to participate in as much as possible as a holy man can. He was also validating John’s ministry. Again, he was the first in all things, just like at creation, or with Jonah in the whale, or David hiding from Saul, HE was always there. And the last little section maybe the most important section to some–because it says that by Him all things are held together.  Think about that statement! that means that’s how the atoms are held together, your body is held together, our universe is held together by His very thought. And yet, some would say-there is no God. I would hate to be that person if God decided not to think about me being “together”-but it is that basic. Some say why doesn’t He take care of us in America better, like He used to? Well honestly, if it were me, being kicked out of every school, every government building, no one could honor my name in public with a prayer of praise or thanksgiving, and the President of the country said that we are not a Christian country? I would be calling down the hurricanes and tornadoes and snow and rain and floods, because I am not good and compassionate and long-suffering like He is. I don’t keep hoping day after day that you will wake up and want me back as your God. If I were Him, I would have zapped ME a long time ago. But I am so grateful that my God is so kind and caring and loving and compassionate and long-suffering–waiting that no one should perish.

Remember He didn’t create Hell for People. But if People choose to go there instead of His Heaven after all He has done for them, then I would say, they deserve Hell.


I  am to answer the next 10 questions and then list nominate at least 5 min, 10 max bloggers that I appreciate or have been especially encouraging to me. So to those bloggers you will do the same.

1.  What is my favorite color? red, but then yellow would be a very close second

2.  What is my favorite animal? my Yorkshire terrier of course!

3. What is my favorite non – alchoholic drink? well that depends on the time of the day and do I need a pick-me-up. I must have gatorade and coke zero

4. Do I prefer Facebook or Twitter? I am 60, need you ask?

5. What is your favorite pattern? small houndstooth

6. Do I prefer giving or getting presents? I love to give-I can’t take anything with me after all.

7. What is my favorite number? 13 I

? each day is my favorite because I can be sharing Jesus with someone who opens his/her heart to Him 

9. What is my favorite flower? I blue iris, yellow roses, lily of the valley

10. What is my passion? That’s easy!  To know Jesus Christ in all of His Fullness and to share that with whomever the Father brings to me. of course writing about it all is pretty obessive too.

There are some writers that probably have been given so many awards so many times I am not sure that another will fit. but each of these ladies were with me in the begining. It was their encouragement that kept me writing regardless of how I felt: Marianne http://God’ ; Joyce; Debra ; Jo ; Dee http://lillies, ; Steven ; Rob

A Most Wonderful Thanksgiving– Matthew 5:23-24

If you are familiar with the passage, you are already saying, “A Most Wonderful Thanksgiving?”  The passage reads as follows “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar, First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.

I have 5 brothers and sisters. We are ALL very strong willed and opinionated people. When we get together, I am sure that at first it is very daunting for the new spouses, because we interrupt, we talk over one another, we loudly disagree–actually there isn’t much disagreement anymore, but there used to be a lot! I am sure, again because I’ve heard it said, that we come across as very confident, gregarious, and so on. BUT, let me tell you what is true. Underneath those strong willed people are people who have been hurt, mistreated, abused, lied to in some shape or fashion by those we loved and trusted at some point in our lives. I am not just talking about ex-spouses, (some of us have them) or lovers, or friends, but family members, each other, me.

Yes, me. I too have been guilty of assuming, controlling (I called it mothering, but they didn’t), hurting by neglect-just not taking the time for those most important people in my life.  I have had to almost lose my life to learn how very important they are to me–all of them. But you know the best thing about having Holy God for your Father? It is never too late to change! Or rather be changed. Just voicing the desire is enough, He gets right to work. He’s been waiting for me to notice, I’m sure. 

For the last 6 years now, He has been healing relationships that I can really track. This last week seemed to be the culmination of that, bring us together for the holiday several times, different ways with different people. God allowing me to really listen and make right a relationship that I had made all the wrong assumptions about years ago! What a wasted time. But I have already prayed that He will restore the years that the locusts ate here too. I am excited and so looking forward to having new “real” relationships-not relationships just based on kinship. How neat it was on the last day  that we’d all be together, that nobody was ready to quit hanging together yet, so we just traded one venue for another! And of course it’s great that it’s not just happening to me and my relationships but to the others too.

You may be asking how exactly that passage in Matthew fits here. All I can say is that for several years, whenever I took communion, and this passage was read, it made me think of family-my family-t he need to be reconciled one to another, to forgive petty grievances, or large for that matter. I did take this as a command when Jesus says, “First go…” I promise it is much easier to obey than to suffer the consequences. And the final result when you are obedient is spectacular! 

Older and wiser you may say—and you’d be right. But this is so much more than that though. This is God at His Finest Work-healing relationships. This has been brought about by much prayer, first started by my parents who are now with the Lord and then continued by my sister and me because we too thought it was so important. Isn’t God Great?