Thank God that He says He never lets go of me! Not even for a second. He says “He holds me by His strong right hand.”
Yesterday after having been given a diagnosis of orthostatic hypotension two weeks ago, we found out that the condition is incurable and is not easily managed. This means that somehow, even with medication, my blood pressure goes to extreme highs and and lows. The lows when I am standing, which mean dizzy and lightheaded. Not fun at all, makes one nauseous and I have to be very careful not to fall because of the blood thinners I am on.
When I am sitting, usually in the mid afternoon is when the BP spikes and gives me the worst of headaches. They really don’t want me to take a lowering BP pill, because that negates the med that I took in the am to raise it.
The doc says this is a nervous system problem and so I need a super neurologist. He’s found me one I hope to see in the next week or two. My poor brain has had 3 strokes and two spinal meningitis infections. That plus the fact that I take powerful lung meds and powerful heart meds and already have to take some pretty heavy duty neuro drugs. I need someone really knowledgeable to manage all of them and my various conditions as I go through this journey.
But regardless of this, I know who’s really in charge– the One who is in charge of everything and everyone. I know Him personally. I know I can depend on Him for my everything, every need.
I thank Him I have been able to work still and that I have the greatest support from my husband and family. So even if I can’t be as independent or even as active as I’ve been lately (which isn’t that much), again I say IT ISN’T OVER TILL IT’S OVER!!