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And Life Keeps Slipping On By…2 ER Visits

Posted by Cindy H French on 08/26/2013

My August was crazy busy, punctuated by two ER visits that I couldn’t let slow me down. I know that might sound crazy in lieu  of all my physical issues, but to me, they were simply attacks. Satan‘s way of keeping me off my game. The first was my asthma of course. We tried the fire station again, but for some reason they took 10 minutes to come to the door and finally my husband had to call 911 to get them to call them. Their lights were out, I guess they all were sleeping. But it took them so long to get to me and then to decide to do anything-and nothing of importance that I wound up in the ER. The ER released me just in time to visit my pulmonologist that I already had an appointment with. It felt like one big plan on somebody else’s part. I finally got enough breathing treatments and drugs to do better-but a waste of time and energy as far as I am concerned.

And then because I had had a very short dose of antibiotics for that respiratory issue, my C Diff decided to raise its ugly head again and so I was in the ER  for a Monday afternoon for that. Unfortunately, that one’s not so easily gotten rid of and so I am still dealing with it and will for a awhile.  I did have a scan to make sure I hadn’t suddenly grown a tumor or a blockage, incase anyone would question that, but negative on that end too. Did I forget anything? oh yes, last week, I also had an eye infection. Nothing drops won’t take of though.

  I still base everything on 2 Corinthians 1: 4 though: The God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we can comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.  (American Standard Version)

So what do I think happened to me in August? Satan’s winning? God isn’t watching out for me so carefully? I think I covered this in my last post, but let me say it again, I believe that everything that touches me has to come filtered through God’s fingers. Just as the silversmith cannot take his eyes off of the silver being refined by the fire, neither can the Father take His eye off of me. So you say, “Cindy what about all these afflictions still?” I don’t know of fruit coming off the asthma episode yet, but I certainly saw it with the C Diff and a young nurse taking care of me in the ER. All afternoon I had wondered why I was there again, so soon after the last time, but it was for her. She is a nurse today because her brother had leukemia when she was young. He was one of the “lucky ones”. He now runs a camp for seriously ill children and she is nurse–would either of those careers been sought if other circumstances had prevailed in their young lives? But look whose lives they are touching now! I asked, of course about their own personal beliefs. I was very happy that both of them know Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God as their personal Savior. What I did encourage her to do is to write all her memories down from the sister perspective. How helpful that might be for someone else! She is like me and thinks she can’t write a book either, so I told her all about blogging. I hope she joins our world and she tells her brother. They could so multiply the good they do.

And you might be asking yourselves, “well, Cindy if you are so sure about your Heavenly Father and His eyes on you, why would you be questioning where you are again?” That would be because I am not perfect yet, especially when I am hurting. I need my Father right there, front and center, talking to me, telling me what I am supposed to do and if there is talking to be done to somebody, to bring them on, but that I need the right pain meds to be able to do that talking. My hospital doesn’t like Demerol. Until I had spend several hours rolling around in pain regardless of how much morphine they gave me, they didn’t go find any Demerol. It was amazing though how fast that Demerol worked! Then I could talk! And talk I did.

The other reason that I was questioning things was that the day before I had been absolutely compelled to go to FB Atlanta. I didn’t feel that well, my husband didn’t at all and so I had gone alone. Dr. Stanley spoke on 2 Corinthians 1: 4!  It’s funny, but I don’t believe I have ever heard a sermon on my verse before. Actually that wasn’t his main text. His main text was I Peter 1: 3-7  Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us a new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade–kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation  that is ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith–of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire–may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

Dr Stanley had many very important parts to his sermon. He thought they were so important that we all needed to be able to take notes and put them in our Bibles.  As it is late and I have already been so wordy, I’ll save the notes for part 2. So ya’ll come back now, cause these are great!!

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ONE YEAR LATER

Posted by Cindy H French on 08/04/2013

I was speaking to a dear friend of mine from Tampa a few nights ago and she reminded me of exactly where I was a year ago. Since I do have a short-term memory issue, about the only thing I can remember is that I was recovering from a pulmonary embolism, a very large deep vein thrombosis-where the clot had come from, and not getting my blood count right from one week to the next (I was taking Coumadin). Regardless of all this, I was working and I know that during this time, God gave me some of the most incredible insights into Himself/The Trinity, that I have ever had, ever thought of, could have imagined.

I know that this very special care of me continued even as it seemed to many probably that God wasn’t with me or might even be punishing me. Au contraire!  If you think that for one minute, please go read what exactly silver goes through to be refined! The silversmith never takes his eyes off of the silver that is in the fire-if he does, even for a few seconds, the silver could be destroyed. He knows that, so he never, ever takes his eyes off of the silver when it is the fire. And so  into the fall, struggles with asthma still, then it was December and spinal meningitis. I lost more than money over that illness. If we had any reservations about moving to Atlanta,  I think for sure, they were gone for good at that point.  Christmas came and went, we thought we had found a place with a 3 year lease (God had a better plan of course) and on the day we came home, we found out we didn’t get it.  We’ve been here in an apartment for the first time in our married lives because that was where God wanted us to be for now. Never would I have expected to have had another stroke, been healed, and then moved onto the job of my dreams all in 2 1/2 months time. But that is exactly what happened! Now 90 days into the job, I know that I serve a God of Miracles, an Amazing God, because only He could have put me exactly where I am today versus a year ago.

Of course I can not share what I am doing or even long term expectations, other than to say, again, that God is in this too! I always pray before starting my “hunting”. He knows the hearts of individuals that I need for my clients. He knows where those people are and I believe He leads me there. We both want the absolute best for that person and their life/families life, and the impact it will have on the firm, on clients, on so many people. It is very far reaching, what I do. I try to take care with great responsibility for my role. I hear over and over how ” different ” my approach is. Well, yeah, I approach it from what’s in it for you? not from what’s in it for me? or even for the client. Because in the long run, that’s what I believe God wants me to do. He is interested in my getting the best for whomever I am talking with. Period, end of statement.

 

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