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Archive for October, 2012

Some Good News!

Posted by cindyhfrench on 10/28/2012

I know, many of you are saying finally! Does that girl just  live in sadness and darkness all the time? Well of course I don’t I wouldn’t have survived till now! I have been pretty open about my problems with the C difficile Bacteria I have had in my colon since last April. That is six long months and six doses of the most powerful and expensive antibiotics one can buy. This is another thing  that I can be thankful for and that is my Aetna healthcare insurance. They certainly came up to the mark and with the doctor’s explanation (a natural requirement) they paid the bill and I paid a $5 co-pay instead of $1500 twice and $3000 once!!

I had a new kind of procedure  done by the gastroenterologist that so far, they have had 100%   results with. and fortunately for me, I didn’t break their streak!! for the first time in 6 months I had a negative test. Hallelujah! And it was 2 months today that God told me in that clinic waiting room that I had to come off of the Remecaid so that I could be healed of the C Difficele. And He promised to take care of the pain this time.  All of my doctors except the Christians thought I was crazy, but He is always faithful I have not hurt and I am healed of the C Diff. I am not healed of the RA as I had  hoped and so mid November I will get my first infusion. I am hoping that since I am not so bad now anyway, and I am trusting the Lord to keep me ok till I can get the medicine, that I won’t have to go so high with the dosage. I know I am not healed because I still have the dry eyes and the dry mouth spillover from shogrens a kind of RA that I don’t test positive for but still have dry skin, dry mouth, dry eyes, dry tissues-like my ears, and the doctor says that means I am very dry internally good-not such a good thing.

But that’s ok, that’s alright! I have been healed of C Diff!!

Thank you , Abba Father! For your care and for your unfailing faithfulness to me!  Surely I am learning your lessons to trust and obey you in all things. I would like to get to the day when I do not question. I just do it. Continue to teach me Abba, I long to do your will , O Lord and to please you forevermore. Grant me freedom from this latest respiratory infection/bug. help me to sleep tonight Lord. I haven’t really slept well in over a week because it is hard to sleep sitting up.. I know I have  really been having a harder time  with my breathing at night. It gets so restricted and that’s when I have to stay cool. the Lord is not going to take me after  HE has given me other things to do. Just so ya’ll push me know that I am  gathering my material for the next book-this being a memoir. Thank you Abba for all of your many, many blessings this week, including getting Diane moved. in the Precious Name of Jesus Christ your Son, I ask all these things and more unspoken, but the Spirit knows. Amen and Amen.

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A Heavy Heart

Posted by cindyhfrench on 10/19/2012

This morning as I continue to read headlines that remind me of Bible prophecy in some ways makes my heart heavy and sad. Sad because I know of so many that are turned away fron the Lord God-so many who are going to be surprised and caught unaware, unprepared.  And then there are all those I don’t know, but know of. All I can do is pray and exhort others to pray. Are you praying regularly, those who are following me? I don’t believe I spend enough time with the Lord and am getting up earlier and earlier to do so. What I have found is a beautiful peace around 5-5:30 in the morning. I always have to let the puppy out if I get up and so I get to see the stars still in the dark sky and that without all the other lights on they shine a little more brightly. It makes it easy to begin to worship. When I see all those millions of stars and think of our Mighty God putting them in place one by one and knowing them by name, it kind of blows you away-seriously if you really think abut it. And since I am studying Genesis as you all know, that’s what I am thinking about still.

This week we were all the way into Cain and Abel. It was interesting to really do a study on them, because I had always thought God a little unfair when it came to them. What I forgot of course, is that He knows the heart and exactly where that sacrifice is coming from. Give a little, give a lot-that doesn’t matter to him.  It’s where it’s coming from in your heart. He’s been dealing with me on the same subject. How very hard it is to give that tithe when there is no regular money on a monthly basis.  And yet not to do so is a lack of trust on my part, is that not also true?  So while, that tithe may go to particular ministries vs “the church”, God knows that wherever He something here, there or yon, it has been taken care of. What little I gave last month to one of our ministries helped a woman with 15 children. I didn’t even know about her until I had already given-but not earmarked-and this time,  because I was with the leader was actually told how it would be spent and on whom it would be spent. I was so thrilled to know. This woman takes in the unwanted children. The police bring them to her and she does her best to care for them. This is one of our African ministries. The other one I had mentioned-the sewing classes where we teach the women to sew and they can they make garments to be sold and so can provide for their families. In those instances, they have been widowed or just abandoned by their husbands often with 3 or more children at home and no means of support.

I realize that the African continent is not exactly our neighbor. But with the world at our fingertips, it has become like our neighbor and how can we stand by and do nothing? This reminds me of the parable of the Good Samaritan. In Luke 10:30, Jesus is speaking to  an expert in the Jewish law and he has asked Jesus what he must do to have eternal life.  Jesus answered with a question-What is written. The expert of course quoted,” Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all your soul and with all your mind  AND  Love your neighbor as yourself.”..he should have stopped there, but then he asked who his neighbor was …and you all know the story –The man went down from Jerusalem to Jerico and fell into the hands of robbers. They beat him and stipped him and left him for dead on the side of the road.  A priest came by- saw what happened and passed by on the other side of the road ignoring him. So too did a Levite, but then a Samaritan came on road and he saw the man and took pity on him. He bandaged him up, got him to an innkeeper, left money for his keep and care and said he’d give him more if he required it on his return… Which of the three people do you think was the man’s “neighbor?” So when confronted -all I can do  is all I can do. When the Lord leads I give what little I have…and trust Him to make up the difference.   All this just from Cain and Abel and a few million stars!

I do urge you if you are not involved in some kind of mission to get involved. You have to be hands and feet somewhere or Jesus will say” What did you do with your life that I gave you?-Trust me He does say that. He said it  to me in a dream in 1993. It was a waking dream from anesthesia. I had had an asthma attack while under and so woke up with a tube in my throat. Ever since 1993, I have been in a Bible study and I have been back in church and been sharing what God has done for me. I know He’s real. You know that too if you follow me. But we can’t just sit here in our comfortable American homes (while we have them anyway) and not be hands and feet in some way. Check out World Vision. If I could do one more thing. That would be it.

One more thing and yes I don’t intend to stop until the election is over. I read with interest a memo that has been release by Billy Graham’s office about the election.  He is simply asking people to vote remembering our God, the unborn, and our Christian principles. I pray he is not saying too  little too late. I read that awhile ago He had suffered through a visit from the man in the W..house-that they had prayed together!!!how do you pray with a muslim? Keep on PRAYING  AMERICA. THE BATTLE IS NOT LOST, BUT NEITHER IS IT WON! GO TO THE POLLS AND VOTE!

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Posted by cindyhfrench on 10/18/2012

this better than any way that I could have put it..the only thing I want to add is I am still not hurting. The RA is still at bay!

Wait on the Lord

Gathering them together, He commanded them not to leave Jerusalem, but to wait for what the Father had promised, ‘Which,’ He said, ‘you heard of from Me; for John baptized with water, but you will be baptized with the Holy Spirit not many days from now. … but you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you,  Acts 1:4-8a

Jesus told His followers to wait in Jerusalem for the promise of the Holy Spirit. This promise would give them power.

His followers waited in expectation on the promise in the Upper Room in Jerusalem, but their waiting was active. Acts tells us that they devoted themselves to prayer. They also appointed a replacement for Judas.

After the Lord impressed upon Keith and me that I would be healed of fibromyalgia, we waited in expectation, too.

We actively waited.

  • We prayed.
  • We studied the Bible.
  • We…

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Hiccups, There Are Always Hiccups

Posted by cindyhfrench on 10/09/2012

It’s time to go back and fill everybody in on all my goings on. I had so hoped that I would have great news to share that my C Diff is healed/gone away, but I don’t think so. I am hoping that with a test that will be done tomorrow or Wednesday, that’s not the case and that whatever I am dealing with is leftovers, but I don’t think so. This is one of those things that you just know you’ve got.  But one GREAT piece of news is that MY GOD has continued to keep me from the incredible pain that I usually experience from my RA with no treatment at all. He said I had to be off of the Remecaid for me to every be healed of the C Diff-I think that means that I will be healed. Maybe the procedure just has to happen twice for me to work the miracle that it is. So I will try and reschedule that for a week or two down the road-whatever the doctor thinks I can handle.

The other procedure  I went through was to help my “dry eyes”–I get infections in them all the time because of it and so a neuropthamalogist lifted up my bottom lids of my eyes to cover more of my corneas. He is very good, but because I have been on coumadin even though I was off of it for the surgery, I still bruised horribly. I had two shiners like you wouldn’t believe.  It has taken 3 weeks for everything on my face to go back to normal and me not look beaten up! My Dry Eyes as they call them are from my RA; I also have the dry mouth and dry skin that go along with them. Sometimes my mouth gets so dry if I don’t have my water with me, everything sticks together and I can’t talk; so I try to always have a bottle of water with me wherever I am.

 I stayed in bed much of this last weekend. I think I was recovering from everything I’d been through and not had the time to recover from. I spent a lot of time in my Bible though. First of all I am fascinated by the Book of Genesis. I thought I had studied before! I either forgot what I knew or truly God has opened my eyes to so much more. As I have said before, now that I understand and can explain so much better the Trinity, I can read Genesis with a whole different way of looking at it. Forgive me if I repeat myself, but again and again, I am overcome with God’s incredible, everlasting, overiding love for me, for others I  know Christian and non Christian-because He died for them too, regardless of their belief or acceptance. It doesn’t alter the FACT.  For we all know that before the foundation of the world, The Trinity/God  had a plan to create the human race, knowing that we would choose our own way, so sin came into the perfect He had created just for us. If you really take the time to read how and in what order things were created, you would see how careful and precise everything was ordered. What I read didn’t take away from science, so I don’t understand what most people’s problems are about believing creation-its just too perfect to have “happened” in an explosion or morphing over time. It certainly makes more sense than aliens starting our race! I can’t even go there. So once sin was in the world, God’s plan continued and if you were to read the Bible all the way through or even just the major chapters of each book, You would see God’s plan working. Prophecy started in the very 1st chapter of Genesis about Jesus coming. So you know He had a plan. And all through the prophets and the Psalms there is prophecy, lots and lots and lots of prophecy of the coming Savior.  What no one understood is that there were two comings prophesied -Jesus came first as a baby born of a virgin,  to grow up to die for our sin-he was to be the final sacrifice, the Passover Lamb, but everyone was looking for a  King.   The next time He comes, He won’t disappoint, He will come as the King of Kings.  This time, everyone on the entire earth at the same time will see His coming! And after He puts down the garbage that has taken over the earth with their false messiah and the do what you want to do society…Then every knee will bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Those who have not accepted His gift of salvation the garbage included, they are sent to the pit for a thousand years. We will have a new heaven and a new earth and a new Jerusalem. We won’t need the Sun because our world will be lit by the light of our God who will live here among us. I can’t even imagine that. I want to-especially when I hear my favorite song-I can only imagine.  When I hear it, I just know that probably the first thousand days I will be on my face unable to speak at all,and then the next, I’ll be up and dancing and singing (again) with my loved ones who are there also.

So if you have read this tonight-somehow found this blog by accident-I am here to tell you it was no accident!  I pray you will take in and ask God seriously for yourself-do you know Him personally? Have you asked HIM to come into your heart? To forgive your sin? you may think your pretty good or at least not so bad, but GOD says no one not perfect comes into my Heaven. So how do we get there? by having Jesus in our hearts He makes us perfect.  He has made me perfect in body and in spirit. I don’t question Him anymore about why did you make me like this?? Because I know there is someone I will talk and understand with  because I had it too.  just like the wicked C Diff, a week ago, I spoke with a woman who had had it for 5 weeks in the hospital in isolation. She was so glad to speak to somebody that had had it and understood what it was and how you felt. Everything…she was just happy there was somebody. Thank you God that I could be her somebody.

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America Remember In God Do We Trust? I Still Do, Who Will Stand With Me?

Posted by cindyhfrench on 10/02/2012

Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you who acts on behalf of those who  wait for him. You come to the help of those  who gladly do right, who remember your ways. But when we continued to sin against them, you were angry. How then can we be saved? All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins seep us away. No one calls on your name or strives to lay hold of you; for you have hidden your face from us and made us waste away because of our sins.  Yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand. Do not be angry beyond measure, O Lord; do not remember our sins forever. O look upon us, we pray, for we are all your people.

Do you realize America that  we might be electing a president on a platform that wanted no part of God in the platform. That it was loudly booed when God was put in anyway?  Forget party lines and who owes who a favor we are going to be giving America away. I know that is what some people want, but I can not believe that the vast majority really truly believe that there is no God and that it really doesn’t matter who we have in the White House or in the Congress. They say that it is women that just “LOVE” the Man and that they will be responsible for him winning the White House. If that is true, then we women deserve everything we have coming to us in the future. And I promise it won’t be pretty. It won’t be freeing. It won’t be empowering. Forget the glass ceiling.  You won’t be going anywhere. Or haven’t you noticed how women are treated on the other side of the world? They can’t drive a car, teach in a school, make a decision on their own without their husbands approval. And those clothes you like to wear? with length of the skirt barely covering your bottom sometimes  and the blouses see through–well I can promise this, absolutely none of that will be allowed. Those women cover up from head to toe. Are you blind? or you just think it will be different over here? Wrong  wrong, wrong. Whoever sold you that bill of goods was a very good liar.

I stand on God’s side come what may. This is what it has come down to.  God or no God.

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