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I WOKE UP TO ROMANS 8:35-39

Posted by cindyhfrench on 04/22/2012


Is that a confusing title? Let me explain. Last Sunday, very early the Lord woke me to pray for certain people that were out of a mission trip. I had promised them that I would pray for them while they were gone and  had been praying for them. But I have learned that when God asks me to do something like this, it is important. That something is going on that I don’t know about, but He does. So I asked Him to speak to me and tell me how to pray and then I opened my Bible to Romans 8:35-39.

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered”  No, in all these things we are more than conquerors though him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything in all creation be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

So how did that scripture passage relate to that missionary project and the people there? I don’t know yet. But I am sure that I will hear some great stories and whatever was going on at that very time as well. Then I began to think of that passage in regards to me and my relationship with Jesus and what do I let get in the way of experiencing absolute trust and peace all the time,every time. As the day wore on, it turned out that I really needed that scripture for me-because I had caught a bug later identified as C difficele. This is a particularly nasty little bug. There is the requisite coming out of both ends (sorry I couldn’t think of a nicer way to put it), but I also had a high fever  and my lower abdomen was in agony. We had to wait an hour and a half to get back to a bed in the ER–by then I had thrown up several times in the  basin they had given me. I no longer cared nor was embarrassed when I had to get out of the chair and just lay down on the floor. BUT once I got back to a room you would have thought that I was in a different hospital.  They were kindness and gentleness personified. And when they decided to keep me,I thought, here we go again-and I just can’t do it, Lord. Even with the drugs, I was in such pain, I couldn’t sleep. This hospital doesn’t give demerol, the only IV pain med I can take! And with the severe nausea-yes still had that too–I didn’t see how I would keep a pill down. But the Lord gave me the kindest, most caring nurses. The main nurse for me suggested she give me some compazine (hope I spelled that right) give it a few minutes in my system and then try to get the pill down. Then she came back 30 min later w/some IV adavan and finally I was able to sleep.

The next day were more blood cultures and other kinds of cultures and suddenly my nurse came in with one of those yellow  isolation gowns and handed me a bunch of printed material to read. She said I had tested positive for this C Diff and that it is highly contagious and from now on I was in isolation. Everyone coming into my room including family had to “dress-up”. When she left, I just put my head down and wept. What I had read about the bacteria was pretty bad-it comes back after you get it into “remission”. And the things that it can do to your colon-more serious-like-kill me.

So here is where that scripture passage comes in. I couldn’t comfort myself.  I couldn’t even reach out at that point. So my dear Holy Father sent in one of His angels in the form of my tech. I had had her the first night too. And every time she did anything  and I said thank you-she would reply it is my pleasure. So here she comes in, and seeing the tears she says I know exactly how you feel! I think I have heard that phrase just a few times! The Lord was turning my ministry back on me because He knew exactly what I needed and He wasn’t going to let anything separate us including my newest sickness or despair. My little tech proceeded to tell me that the first time she had it-she was in the hospital 12 days! and the 2nd time only 5 Praise God! and by the way, I have Crohn’s disease. And Ms Cindy, you are so lucky that they caught this  as early as they did, You really could be a whole lot sicker!

So of course she was my blessing that night. She helped me immensely just by saying I know exactly how you feel.   I told her that and then told her a little bit about my ministry and then I told her about II Cor 1:4 which is one of my life verses. I told her I would share it with her-she was and is so special. Thank goodness my Lord doesn’t let me wallow in self-pity very long–He had shored me up with scripture that I needed now that very morning. Because of my immunity issue, when I spike a fever over 101, I have to go to the ER or a Doc if I can see one. Were it not for that, I might still be writhing around in the bed only I’d have some extreme complications with my colon. So a silver lining there! Even as I was being sick, I was praying in my spirit for healing and repeating the scriptures like “by His stripes we are healed”. That was my concentration, but just as the Lord promised to be there every minute with me, He gently reminded me of the words He had given me. It was important to Him for me to call on Him like I did and to believe that nothing-not one single thing could ever separate me from His love and care. Because as anyone can see, I am not strong. I ask why. Sometimes I am still rebellious in my thoughts–pray on that for me, please. That’s not who I want to be–to be simply a sweet fragrance to Him by my actions, thoughts and deeds.

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2 Responses to “I WOKE UP TO ROMANS 8:35-39”

  1. Oh I pray that you are feeling better, Cindy. Thank you for sharing your experience with us and for the reminder that yes, the Lord is with us every single moment of our lives. It is also wonderful to know that His words give us strength, hope, and comfort through whatever we face in life.

    • I am much better, thank you. No fever, no anything else. I don’t think I am contagious anymore-so will try and make a company meeting tomorrow.
      this is getting so crazy, every month something new-I didn’t even tell my friends this time.

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