Its Late, But So Much Has Happened…

Those of you who have been following me for a while know that my life can change on a dime! And Sunday it did. I had been doing so great, but sitting there as the service was starting up, I was having trouble getting enough air. I thought if I could just get out in the atrium with my inhaler to a vent, I wouldn’t cause a stir. Au contraire! I got to the vent, took a hit off the inhaler and promptly passed out. I heard, “there she goes!” Thank goodness there were people around me and someone to catch me, I guess. Someone went and got my husband and my purse which has a little personal air spirometer, but I couldn’t hardly make the ball go up. So I knew I was in trouble. And then once we got into the car, my right arm starting just aching horribly, then my chest. I felt a lot of pressure. We were too far from our hospital, so we went to a small city hospital ( never again) but of course once I was stable and had to stay because of my heart issues ( you can’t leave against med advice or medicare won’t pay).  We hear a man screaming down the hall, “let me die, I want to die. I want to commit suicide.” Over and over he was yelling and screaming that!  I knew right then we were there to pray for that man. Which of course we began to do. I couldn’t know his name because of HIPPA of course, but God knows who he is. 

Because for some reason they didn’t get my BP med dosage correct, my BP soared and with it came the most awful headache I’ve ever had. It was with me all the time I was there. I kept telling them I needed more meds. I got them just as I left but it took me 3 doses of meds when I got home and this morning to get it back to what is normal for me and no sick headache. I did have absolutely wonderful nurses! Sunday night, my coughing went south and I was running out of strength to cough anymore ( by then I’d been at it for over 3 hours. Hard, rib cracking, muscle pulling, coughing. Finally I got some Solumedrol-my miracle drug, and no coughing for over 2 hours! I also got cough syrup and Benadryl  2 hours before the Solumedrol, but they didn’t work. That’s what happens when things go so far. NOTHING works except Solumedrol. How thankful I am that I live in a time that the medicine exists!!

The reason I had to stay over night was to have a cardiac stress in the am. But honestly, I have never had a stress test that took all day! Management agreed with me when I spoke with them late in the afternoon. If you’ve never had one, you can’t eat or drink or take your heart meds until you’ve the test completed, so you see why my body went a little nuts!!  At least it was over and we left at 7 pm. 

So what else could good could possibly have come out this? I tell you honestly when you can’t sleep for any reason, that’s one of the best times to commune with the Father and  I had hours. I, of course, was praying about my condition, but He led me  off to so many other subjects. I have to admit, it was kind of wonderful. He was right there and bad as I had it. I knew it and until I started really going downhill, I had been praying and praising for all the blessings, for that man, just for everything He brought to my mind to talk about. I guess I have been a little too busy for all that special time with Him. I write about it. I pray alot, but do I listen? The first time God spoke to me was after I had been on a long praise to Him and just ran out of words. I think He said FINALLY!!! I did apologize. I like to talk, but I have been learning to listen over the years. 

Two things I have learned: One thing He desires, is to be my very best, closest friend. He already knows everything about me. It’s silly when I try to hide anything from Him. He is constantly reminding me that I am His Righteousness. Glory!!! Remember I just wrote there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus. That is truth.

Late enough and it’s long enough, don’t you think? G’ night!




What Does God Say About Being A Youth?

If you read much of the Bible, you might notice a that God used a lot of very young people! David, when he was anointed King of the Israelites by Samuel in 1 Samuel 16, was barely in his teens. He had a very interesting life, one worth studying for the goodness of it, but also for his failures. We all fail.  Timothy in the New Testament was very young as well when Paul appointed him as a pastor. He even reminded Timothy to not let others look down on his because of his youth! 1 Timothy 4: 12  Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct,, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe.  I wish I had been willing to follow Him, just because of this verse!

So this takes me to the second post of today. I do remember well, what it was to be young. Really young, as a child, when my daddy wouldn’t let me do what I wanted to do, I’d tell him, he was a mean daddy! The audacity that I had! Where did it come from? Oh, the Bible is pretty clear about that:  Romans 3:23  says “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”   You might say,  Cindy, you were just a child! Yes, but I knew right from wrong! Like any child, I wanted my own way. Like any teen, any adult, we all want our own way. But usually our ways are God’s ways, nor His thoughts our thoughts-that’s in Isaiah, by the way.  I’ll put it another way. Do you have to teach a small child to lie? No, of course not. Children do it naturally and have to be taught to tell the truth. It’s our very nature to be this way. People are not basically good, again, it’s a taught or chosen way. This is why I get so very upset when I see teens and young adults or even older adults (who should know better!) who have obviously not been taught the whole truth, maybe all the history, or outright lies. No one should be manipulated to do any of these things we are seeing on any of the networks or in any publications of any kind.

I remember very well how it felt to be a teenager! You might say, that was a long, long time ago, Cindy and things are different now. Children and teens are different now. I would agree that some things are different. We have the internet, more channels than we need on TV, X-box or whatever video games-so many with great violence. And movies that are graphic in their violence and sex. I don’t think that means that morals, courtesy or faith had to change. IF, ANYTHING, THEY NEED TO BE STRONGER! I know how hard that is as a teen when all you want to do is just fit in, be a part of the crowd. In my case, the -in-crowd.  However, my mother was forever saying, “Be a leader, Cindy, not a follower.”  Still, I followed as closely as possible, to a point, admittedly, but mostly I was there. You see, in those days, I never asked God what I should do. I didn’t want to hear His answers.

I have already written how I came to know Jesus personally at age 20 in a previous post. I won’t go into the details here except to say if you think you have messed up your life, made impossible to forgive decisions, taken the wrong path, the wrong stuff, been abused or been the abuser, I can tell you without any doubt in my mind or my heart that there is nothing that He will not forgive your for, except if you don’t accept His Son and what He did in His Sacrifice for you. That’s it. It is so simple. How to come to God. A living God who loves YOU. Let Him put His Spirit in you and His arms around you, Today!!


Today’s Content: Our Thoughts

Some people say they can’t control their thoughts! Especially when they are young! They seem to bounce hither and yon and with the influence of the internet, TV, movies, games. Well, I guess it’s obvious where some peoples’ thoughts are alot! But God says that we are to direct our conscious thoughts towards Him, in worship, in prayer, in trusting, in thankfulness. Oh, let me count the many, many ways!!

It is our choice to reject thoughts we know don’t please Him-negative thoughts, anxious thoughts, even evil thoughts.  But He says that if we are quick to confess the sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us and purify us just that quickly! (my paraphrase from 1 John 1:9)  If we do this on a regular basis, your thoughts will keep your mind in His Presence and your feet following His path. I can tell by living, that this choice isn’t easy, but it is incredible when I do it.

Some added scriptures here are:  Palsm 20:6-8  Now I know that the Lord save His anointed; He will answer him from heaven from His holy heaven, With the saving strength of His right hand. Some boast in chariots, and some in horses; But we will boast in the name of the Lord, our God. They have bowed down and fallen; But we have risen and stood upright.   this is Zacharias prophesing when his John was born, here is the part about going before the Messiah:  Luke 1: 76-79  “And you child, will be called the prophet of the Most High; For you will on  BEFORE THE LORD TO PREPARE HIS WAYS; To give to His people the knowledge of salvation By the forgiveness of their sins, Because of the tender mercy of our God, With which the Sunrise from on high shall visit us, To SHINE UPON THOSE WHO SIT IN DARKNESS AND THE SHADOW OF DEATH,  To guide our feet into the way of peace.”     How awesome were those scriptures for us? Take them into your heart and mind and meditate on them!




Today I read David Jeremiah’s devotional. It certainly hit home! He is talking about how appearance has become a dominant factor in our age. People get cosmetic surgery, weight reduction surgery, do the latest and greatest in workouts, and starvation diets. Then, there are the latest clothes, phones, cars… you know what I’m talking about. But from God’s point of view, appearance doesn’t really seem to matter. Elijah, was known as a hairy man wearing a leather belt around his waist. And was also known as a “troublemaker” and eccentric. In fact, Elijah was put on the shelf, so to speak by God for 3 years to learn, while there was a severe drought that he had told King Ahab that God was going to bring and it wouldn’t stop until he said so. But as a man, except for the fact that he was hairy and wore this leather belt,  was not recognizable for being a great man of God. (Read the story 1 Kings 17- 18:39)

So it was for John the Baptist, also. Clothed with camel’s hair and leather belt, he ate locusts (grasshoppers) and wild honey.  When Israel was looking for a successor to King Saul,  Samuel was told by God that the appearance didn’t matter, 1 Samuel 16:7. In Isaiah 53:2, he said there would be nothing about the Messiah’s appearance to make him stand out. 

Last night my husband said to me, you maybe a pretty woman Cindy, but what’s really been important to me in the long run is that you are a good woman. I know what he meant by that–it’s really the Jesus in us that makes us attractive–if we let Him do so and not hide Him in a closet! David Jeremiah says that part of our presentation to others is the “fragrance of Christ” as His life radiates through ours. Probably a better way of saying it.

For me personally, this was very telling at the end: Some flowers must be broken or bruised before they emit any fragrance.  So true of me!


Life Hangs By a Thread

You know the Bible says our lives are like a wisp of smoke, but mine was brought home to me literally this morning as once again, I aspirated something I drank-coffee, this time. When this happens it triggers violent coughing, hopefully getting out everything that went into my lungs. My nose fills up too, making it very hard to breathe. I know if I can’t get it all up, and eventually get the coughing to stop, it’s another trip the ER. Oh, not on July 4th, please!! That was my prayer, in my mind…

Obviously, I got it all out and then did the nebulizer breathing treatment. Sore, not talking right now. But all along, I kept thinking how thin a thread it is that keeps any of us alive! A person can have great health, but slip and fall and get a severe concussion as my sister did a few weeks ago. Hitting just a little higher or lower on the stair and not missing the metal strip, was the key to no major damage. All in an instant! As was mine… When one is young, usually there are no thoughts about death. One thinks they will live forever. I remember thinking people over 35 were “old or past it” whatever “it” was! Oh what a comeuppance I’ve had as I’ve grown older! I guess I never expected to be 67 either! But as I have said before, the Lord God has plan for my life and the number of  my days written in His Book of Life and nothing can alter that.

Jeremiah 29:11-13   For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.   What a promise!! One of my favorites!

Revelation 17:8  …those on earth will wonder, whose name has not been written in the Book Of Life from the foundation of the world…

Revelation 21:27  (speaking of those who will enter heaven) And nothing unclean and no one who practices abomination and lying, shall ever come into it, but ONLY those whose names are written in the Lamb’s Book of Life.

Remember here that I wrote that we are all made perfect in Christ and it is by HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS that we are made whole and perfect by accepting that sacrifice He made on the cross. Our God dying for us, to give us eternal life! What other god in any other religion has ever done such a thing for his people, much less his creation?

In Him we have freedom. Our country was founded on Christian principles. I pray God that we will celebrate that today of all days! Happy Birthday, America!


In This Day of Constant Judgement…

It seems that everything I read these days, hear on TV or the radio is about the liberal left and conservative right. That both parties are splintered, and it certainly seems that way. I have never seen America quite like this except when the Vietnam war was going on and there were constant protests-peaceful and violent. Yet today things seem to be carried even farther. I read in the newspaper  today about an incident at a senior official of Homeland Security’s home, that there was a burning of a decapitated animal. I would say this is taking things way too far on either side. 

God has said that HE is the Judge of all and only HE. He asks that we quit judging others. We have been saved through His Son, Jesus’ Own blood. Of course if we accept that unparalleled sacrifice! I know that a great many on both sides of the aisle in Congress claim to be Christians. So I would direct this to them as well. Forget about your petty, wispy as smoke issues! TALK for gosh sakes equitably, courteously as people should! What has happened to all of the world except I say it lacks a SAVIOR! Too many claim Christianity, but don’t know Him.

God says He is highly offended when his people, much less His creation, act and judge as is happening today.

Luke 6:37  Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

Romans 8:1  Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Please think about your thoughts and actions as you go about your week!