"Several of you are sensing that the fog is finally lifting and your clarity is becoming sharper. Others are still feeling as if you are waist deep in sand. You have each been experiencing changes within your soul - this is why you are growing together. But you are on different places on your paths. This is how your journey is designed.
Archive for April, 2012
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 29, 2012
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 28, 2012
I am humbled that anyone is following my blog posts! I have read a lot of what all of YOU so beautifully write! I do write from my heart whatever the Lord God is saying. And when I am finished writing, I am always so amazed, because the message or story is not what I had intended to write.
I would love to hear from any of you about the nuts and bolts of writing, of putting a blog together, of how to get the most out of wordpress, like do I need more tags? I just this week found out that there were notifications in that little number by my name. I had just thought it was my followers…I knew people told me they were following and that there were more than that 9 number that was there for so long!!
So you can see that I am really challenged! Does anyone think it might be a good thing if I had a table of contents( dates and titles) If so, how do I make one and where do I put it? WordPress is always talking about getting more views, so does anyone have an idea of something I should be doing? And lastly, do I do anything that irritates? Sometimes it’s just a little something, but it keeps a reader away or a heart closed. I would really like to know if there is anything at all…
And to all of you again. I cherish your insights and your prayers for me. often I read them when I was alone in the hospital in the middle of the night–and you wouldn’t have even known yet of my need, but the Lord had put me on your heart and so you had written!
I love you with the love of the Lord…may He come quickly.
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 28, 2012
My posting about the errors of the tongue really stayed with me all day today. Not just because of others’ responses-I was really so busy work wise that I could not read anything until late in the day, but I know the Holy Spirit was really working on me, cleaning me from within, that little closet I had hidden in the back and locked-He now had wide open and was completely cleaning it out! I saw this, I felt this! I realized I wasn’t quite ready for all this spring cleaning in spite of my prayers, my study, and my writing! Horrors! Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror and called yourself a hypocrite? Well, I have. I did. And then of course, my loving Heavenly Father reminded me of this wonderful passage in Romans. I know it is long, but bear with me. They are His Words and powerful:
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do, but what I hate, I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer myself who does it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do –this is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it…..What a wretched man (woman) I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God–through Jesus Christ our Lord.”
Ok, so I have established that I have no good thing in me except the Holy Spirit and the good He produces. I said last night that the Bible says our hearts are desperately wicked and that our tongues speak what is in the heart…even as they too want to speak good, kind, loving words–that is not what comes out of the mouth! Well, I say Thank You God for Paul! If he could not do good in spite of what he wanted to do, then that makes me feel just a little bit better! No really don’t you get it yet that God uses broken, dirty, hopeless, helpless people throughout the Bible. When I read their stories, I think, yes there is hope for me to get there-because HE has been down this road so many times before and will again…choosing to call out to Himself a prostitute, a murderer, a thief. No one is irredeemable! Then or now! So for my slips of the tongue, I am truly sorry-its more habit than meaning. But now I am aware; now I can pray and ask for help for this one thing that God has brought up to me as sin. It has to go.
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Posted by cindyhfrench on April 27, 2012
“Then Jesus, looking at him, loved him, and said to him, “One thing you lack: Go your way, sell whatever you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, take up the cross, and follow Me.” But he was sad at this word, and went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions.” Mark 10:21-22…
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 26, 2012
If you read James 3: 1-12 which is too long of a passage for me to print here, this is a section for practical living. The only problems are that while the tongue is small, its ability to do evil is almost unimaginable. The other problem is that without God’s grace, you will never control your tongue! I went back and re-read the passage again to be sure I had that right. Think about it. The tongue has great power and potential for doing great things or causing catastrophes. I can remember many a time, when that tongue of mine lashed out at someone or some incident that I was unhappy with. The things that come out of the mouth even today sometimes shock me–and I quickly have to ask forgiveness–of my Holy Father, of whoever is around that might have heard me–even the cloud of witnesses. I am so sorry. Just like James 3:9 tells us: one minute we are praising God and the next minute we can turn around and curse a person.
You would think with my voice being healed by God that I would be immune to this. It is HIS voice after all-but my tongue and heart really control the voice–and God says that our hearts are desperately wicked. So this is my prayer-That my heart would be so full of Jesus ALL the time, that there would be no place for any wickedness or thought, so that this voice that He has given back to me is a voice that can ONLY give praises and have good reports to say about anyone or anything or any situation…because I realize that when I complain, when I do not trust, then, I am really being disobedient. His Word does say “in everything give thanks” and that “we are to trust in the Lord with all our hearts, minds and souls”.
Perhaps this is a widespread problem-I don’t know. But I do know that this weighs heavily on my heart and I felt the need to share my need for prayer in this particular area of my life. If your tongue goes wild and crazy on you, let me know and we’ll pray together as Jesus told us, if two or more are gathered together in my Name, there I will be also.
And last, but not least, I actually went looking for a picture of a tongue sticking out for this post! You would not believe the pictures I saw, nor the articles accompanying them. I had no idea that “pictures of tongues sticking out” is the new marketing craze. And what they are conveying! Surely this post is timely! What God gives me is never just for me, but for everyone I share with!
Blessings and I love you with the love of the Lord.
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 25, 2012
James 1:1-4 - James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, to the twelve tribes which are scattered abroad, greeting. 2- My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; 3-Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. 4-But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 22, 2012
Is that a confusing title? Let me explain. Last Sunday, very early the Lord woke me to pray for certain people that were out of a mission trip. I had promised them that I would pray for them while they were gone and had been praying for them. But I have learned that when God asks me to do something like this, it is important. That something is going on that I don’t know about, but He does. So I asked Him to speak to me and tell me how to pray and then I opened my Bible to Romans 8:35-39.
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered” No, in all these things we are more than conquerors though him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything in all creation be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
So how did that scripture passage relate to that missionary project and the people there? I don’t know yet. But I am sure that I will hear some great stories and whatever was going on at that very time as well. Then I began to think of that passage in regards to me and my relationship with Jesus and what do I let get in the way of experiencing absolute trust and peace all the time,every time. As the day wore on, it turned out that I really needed that scripture for me-because I had caught a bug later identified as C difficele. This is a particularly nasty little bug. There is the requisite coming out of both ends (sorry I couldn’t think of a nicer way to put it), but I also had a high fever and my lower abdomen was in agony. We had to wait an hour and a half to get back to a bed in the ER–by then I had thrown up several times in the basin they had given me. I no longer cared nor was embarrassed when I had to get out of the chair and just lay down on the floor. BUT once I got back to a room you would have thought that I was in a different hospital. They were kindness and gentleness personified. And when they decided to keep me,I thought, here we go again-and I just can’t do it, Lord. Even with the drugs, I was in such pain, I couldn’t sleep. This hospital doesn’t give demerol, the only IV pain med I can take! And with the severe nausea-yes still had that too–I didn’t see how I would keep a pill down. But the Lord gave me the kindest, most caring nurses. The main nurse for me suggested she give me some compazine (hope I spelled that right) give it a few minutes in my system and then try to get the pill down. Then she came back 30 min later w/some IV adavan and finally I was able to sleep.
The next day were more blood cultures and other kinds of cultures and suddenly my nurse came in with one of those yellow isolation gowns and handed me a bunch of printed material to read. She said I had tested positive for this C Diff and that it is highly contagious and from now on I was in isolation. Everyone coming into my room including family had to “dress-up”. When she left, I just put my head down and wept. What I had read about the bacteria was pretty bad-it comes back after you get it into “remission”. And the things that it can do to your colon-more serious-like-kill me.
So here is where that scripture passage comes in. I couldn’t comfort myself. I couldn’t even reach out at that point. So my dear Holy Father sent in one of His angels in the form of my tech. I had had her the first night too. And every time she did anything and I said thank you-she would reply it is my pleasure. So here she comes in, and seeing the tears she says I know exactly how you feel! I think I have heard that phrase just a few times! The Lord was turning my ministry back on me because He knew exactly what I needed and He wasn’t going to let anything separate us including my newest sickness or despair. My little tech proceeded to tell me that the first time she had it-she was in the hospital 12 days! and the 2nd time only 5 Praise God! and by the way, I have Crohn’s disease. And Ms Cindy, you are so lucky that they caught this as early as they did, You really could be a whole lot sicker!
So of course she was my blessing that night. She helped me immensely just by saying I know exactly how you feel. I told her that and then told her a little bit about my ministry and then I told her about II Cor 1:4 which is one of my life verses. I told her I would share it with her-she was and is so special. Thank goodness my Lord doesn’t let me wallow in self-pity very long–He had shored me up with scripture that I needed now that very morning. Because of my immunity issue, when I spike a fever over 101, I have to go to the ER or a Doc if I can see one. Were it not for that, I might still be writhing around in the bed only I’d have some extreme complications with my colon. So a silver lining there! Even as I was being sick, I was praying in my spirit for healing and repeating the scriptures like “by His stripes we are healed”. That was my concentration, but just as the Lord promised to be there every minute with me, He gently reminded me of the words He had given me. It was important to Him for me to call on Him like I did and to believe that nothing-not one single thing could ever separate me from His love and care. Because as anyone can see, I am not strong. I ask why. Sometimes I am still rebellious in my thoughts–pray on that for me, please. That’s not who I want to be–to be simply a sweet fragrance to Him by my actions, thoughts and deeds.
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Posted by cindyhfrench on April 14, 2012
God‘s Word says (Paul is writing) And I pray that you being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Or a friend of mine put it another way: God’s love is wide enough to include every person; God’s love is long enough to last through eternity; God’s love is deep enough to reach to the worst sinner; God’s love is high enough to take us all to heaven. permission by Dawn at
Talking about love, this weekend I had the privilege to meet and go through some biofeedback with a wellness doctor. He has a practice that God has given him in which he works with people to discover if there are other factors contributing to a person’s illness, usually chronic or who are having other physical issues. I have a dear sister who has had enormous breakthroughs physically with illness and other issues because of this doctor. She thought that because of my immunity issues along with 2 autoimmune diseases, I would benefit from seeing him. He is not covered by my insurance plan and there was no way I could have afforded such visists. My sweet sister insisted that I go and she was taking care of the bill! And believe me, this was a major expense ! I can not begin to tell anyone how much this has meant to me! But she felt this was life and death for me and more important than anything else that she could do. How very dearly loved I feel!
So again, this wonderful scripture comes back to me this week from Dawn and here I am feeling so loved and then I have to concentrate again on Christ’s love-who loved me even when I didn’t love Him-yet was so willing to step into our time, take on the flesh of man and then die for me–all to bring me to the Father into His family. I realized this weekend new and afresh that BECAUSE of Him, I am worthy. That is something I am going to have to concentrate on, meditate on, so that it permeates all of me, not just my spirit. I discovered this is a very important truth-especially for us-the females-because so very often, we never believe this about ourselves.
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Posted by cindyhfrench on April 9, 2012
I may be too tired to write, but I am never too tired to send a riduculously cute picture of Easter baby bottoms. Aren't they adorable and funny! Hope you are recovering nicely from any family events you hosted or attended. As for me, I am off to the land of cleanup procrastination so I can take a nap! ;)
Posted by cindyhfrench on April 8, 2012
I was able to go to Good Friday service this year. How incredible it was-Set up so intimately so that we all were like round a table-the Table of Communion. A Full house to hear how our precious Jesus led the way for us into the very presence of God Most High–first of course, He had to shed His blood and die and be completely separated from the Father for the first and only and last time in all of time. We can not fathom what that must have been like! That alone-that He was willing is overwhelming for me. And then to die…to go and show hell and the Devil and his angels/demons that they had lost! But He had to go alone- and alone He rose! Even as we will celebrate in the morning. He told Mary in the garden that He hadn’t even been to His Father yet-don’t you know that’s where He wanted to be, but instead, He stayed to comfort those who believed but didn’t understand. How He loved them! How He loves us! Read His prayer to His Father for us in John’s gospel chapter 17. Know this He loves YOU whoever you are, wherever you are, whatever you have done. He died so that You could live-forever with Him in the most glorious place that has ever been created. All you have to do is Ask Him to come into your heart-that you accept His great sacrifice so that you could now have a personal real honest relationship with Him. If you’ve never done that, please let me know-if you chose Him tonight let me know. Do you know that’s when the angels sing? When one new person becomes a child of God. “For as many as received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-John 1:12″